Friday, August 31, 2012

Just Traveler

I blew a kiss to the moon
hoping it would reach you
where you are sleeping just
traveler ready to come home

Know Why

if you didn't know then you don't
now nobody learns anything
goes anyway confirms all error

ask me another and I may or
may not tell you what I think
about that and everything else

I am one of those people who
goes on without revealing what
you might want to know why

because the only answer is any
actual fact of being who it was
confirms the existential vision

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Enough Meaning

stop asking
as if something said or thought
might make a difference
as if doing something else entirely
might be a big mistake

stop saying
whatever comes to mind
as if words themselves were enough
meaning reveal itself
without any need to figure it out

stop seeing
as if how someone happens to look
could explain everything
how it was to be myself at that age
which part I don't understand

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

We Believed

I won't vote Republican
(for family and other good reasons)
but I can't vote for Obama again
he had a great opportunity
he blew it
caved in before he stood up
fights damned wars
tortures Bradley Manning
(solitary confinement is torture)
don't get me started
we believed him
won't reinvest
too bad

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

More Sense

no more to say than sorry
I should have known better
not gone along with wrong
analysis defended my own
integrity such as it was love
is no excuse for blind error

no regrets permitted though
I could have done more to
separate from propaganda
not watch tv not eat sugar
take drugs destroy reason
as if that made more sense

Monday, August 27, 2012


the day goes by
I stagger across the lawn
pick blueberries strawberries raspberries
cook myself a complete dinner
read Chris Hedges
remember the chickens
talk long-distance
listen to music (Beethoven)
is it I lord

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Heavy Cream

am I and does it matter what is
the scheme of things determine
to do it anyway heavy cream is
not required helps be myselves

by myself it means less work is
the sole reward accomplishing
something my famous list is
just an excuse for doing stuff

then I feel better can do more
answer emails make moves is
that the whole banana public
acknowledgement big surprise

Saturday, August 25, 2012

A Good Story

if I could draw I could say what I think
instead Debussy has the words I fumble
glimpse the beauty of his thought Homer
Davenport's quick puncturing pen serves
Hearst his own interest farming horses a
good story Gus tells well practiced hard

Friday, August 24, 2012

Live Longer

I'm not here if you're not
going to tell I'd rather you
tell me first so I can think
what to say to myself as if
actually doing this what it
seems was not wholly true

therefore dissemble if you
must be kidding I wasn't
there in the same way they
thought no one would ever
know better admit it live
longer if it all hangs out

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Another Rhythm

say goodbye before you go
useless to once you're gone
or not at all if always here

there I was saying here I am
you up early I never sleep
on airplanes wish I could

there they were getting off
there you to meet the flight
here me on another rhythm

call home come back soon
keep in touch though it's not
the same if either one away

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Too Late

think if you can what about
class power Marx what to do

never mind the others they
may have trouble remember

it was simple then already
too late too late who knew

this time could hardly be
worse only bigger slower

nothing stays fixed we go
back undo relive to regret

Italian Rooms

these words extra are that who the sentence
moves on its own fluid like the viol in the old
kerk in all languages contemplate resolution

stanzas are Italian rooms doorways crowded
solitary passages before masterpieces art is
merchandise imbued with traveling energy

lost night eventually made up different beds
twining stair requires careful tread avoiding
falling colliding collapse thanks to grammar

Monday, August 20, 2012

Echoing Streets

gone is over as if never
dark in here as if night
but morning there where
we soon will be arrived

what was it seven days
if hadn't happened some
other hastening forward
return from being gone

instead ignore imposing
historic canals charmed
real cafés sidewalk lives
record in echoing streets

artificial gap opens then
closes I unscarred unseen
uncompanied partisan of
watching who does what

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Good Ones

this is the poem I would have read
if I had written it for the good ones
Jan Huub Julia Jimmy Mark glad
I'm among them Jan joking Huub
serious Jimmy holding forth Mark
quietly correcting the record Julia
leading her own young life we all
appreciate a moment among men
among many met in Amsterdam

and Remy Charlip passed away
at Zen Center San Francisco he's
a story almost public figure now
self-mythologized unlike these
modest Dutch who know they're
good but're only doing it to live
and give pleasure in being heard
thinking unfolding manifest art
in being who we have become

Thursday, August 16, 2012

First Time

I was in the other room. They told me about it afterwards. Judy had been up to Denver with her girlfriends, and they camped at a hot springs on the way back. After supper, they turned on and watched the sun go down with some cute guys in the tubs and paired up for the night, and she made the mistake of telling Bill about it when she got home. They always said they should tell each other everything, but that was the beginning of the end. She assured him it didn't mean anything: it was some kind of girl-jock ritual, nothing to do with him. But it was the first time either of them had done anything outside the marriage, apart from a little canoodling with former boy- and girlfriends. The door was open.

Night Spices

eyes burn from looking feet hip ache
from walking brain sizzles with many
people issues demanding sympathy at
least the next similar day night spices
come back at most inconvenient times

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Mud Piles

a different history changes nothing
another new age redeem experience
you have to deal with it easy or not

this past is ours as well regarding
meteor trails mud piles squirming
upwards to a bogus make-believe

Monday, August 13, 2012

No Sleep

sit for ten hours
arrive with no sleep
total disruption
then be elsewhere

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Only Now

getting bigger is always a mistake
Joe Cino knew better that it didn't
work out was not a matter of size
we stumble along doing our best
in a bad situation getting worse

ain't it the way the way I missed
Chekhov's specificness for years
only now can I read Pynchon with
pleasure make my own decisions
take my own trips before too late

Friday, August 10, 2012

Real Reason

no excuses lead to real reason
not to be there with those folk
singing under my breath tone
deaf to direction trying to act
natural hard on my own art

so I said no what a relief beg
me the silent subtext unread
unpunctuated unreal feathers
flutter down like snow effect
lately deferred to as summer

Thursday, August 09, 2012

No Training

will I willingly will
what I can decide to
not do after all this
what will be said of
me if all is allowed

this is my moment
to reimagine after
years of no training
lazy and late to start
I will do it anyway

Wednesday, August 08, 2012

Real Rubber

skip it felt like real rubber from trees
could be a lot worse sometimes was
what we knew what we had thought

now everything is entirely different
underneath we are the same animals
getting along badly but still doing it

will overcomes difficulty stronger
effort rises above sensible promise
reward worth a world of suffering

Tuesday, August 07, 2012

Serious Water

what I would have said if I said what I meant
has to be considered optional optical adaptable
to changing conditions can't count on things
continuing indefinitely participial the language
never less adequate to describe the situation

what I would have meant if I meant anything
I said what I thought would work under these
restraints trade barriers unforgiven misdeeds
in another country I would be in serious water
wonders whether a real question can be asked

Monday, August 06, 2012

Each Fact

too full fortune time emerges
waits to see is this it is this it
is yes then modulates a zone
living temperate decisive ask
each fact only own one's own

that this exists too may mean
no compensation measure my
comfort hot not too nicely fed
friends love well so far music
answers all remaining doubt

Sunday, August 05, 2012

An Omen

"thick fluids in flexible containers" do you mean
us or milk is it an omen is it available streaming

Saturday, August 04, 2012

You Know

if you hadn't said so I wouldn't have known
you know it's very unwise to think you know
what anyone is thinking unless they tell you
specifically and they may change their mind

you presume you know me it must be obvious
I let it hang out here if anyone is interested
I guess I know you although I don't really I
only accept that you know what you're doing

Friday, August 03, 2012

Nobody Noticed

I never think of anything anymore
as if it already happened and
nobody noticed but me as if I
already thought what it might be
so it didn't have to actually

Thursday, August 02, 2012

I'm Gone

time of no time between
moons readings haircuts
writing time divided up
fragments collide freely
compulsive let the mind
assemble if people don't

this is what I wanted to
tell you I will be going
away to a different here
routine suspended week
off no one will know it
don't tell them I'm gone

Wednesday, August 01, 2012

Plentiful Kicks

continual input required to attain
this placid stasis vibrating books
fall over each other competing to
be read one-clicked whim hungry
for something else added plentiful
kicks ideas snores squirms gripes
mispunctuate the marks I devour