Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Such Fun

cancellation looming not enough actors cast Frank Stephen Chris Louise Sibby two Trolls no Bob Susan can't rehearse Gary Michele regret no one left to ask can I be glad not really I was up for it out every night work my balls off for nothing again deliver show how can I be happy not nothing else such fun

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Dumb Eyes

all kinds animals living penned alpacas camels bison goats dumb eyes asking what is this why new sky angels sand worm jackal dinosaur puppy image recurs big decision deadline cost plus rent not reason emotion intuition money whatever must come go

Monday, November 27, 2006

Thick Air

weather continues entertaining snow thick air slick road white light dim bright big tree fence colder shorter postnap losing forlorn forsaken philosophical design unintelligent measure stage do something quickly gloved hatted simple reality agenda phone calls email hug

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Keep Asking

others marriages appear mechanical keep asking is this really what I want to be doing otherwise weird patterns make-believe attachments choiceless repetition ask yourself every minute remember not just happening doing

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Editing Barbara

refusal to underline significances is that wise casting notes Erika out Dane offended Gary hooked I hope gallery quiet one two appreciators editing Barbara learning styles finally thanks Carol excellent teacher cheese wine soup salad cell phone literate reading

Friday, November 24, 2006

Orderly Life

One expression of the precepts is leading a clear orderly life on an individual level. (Harada Roshi) an endless struggle with packaging boxes tubes wrappers bottles corks tape stickum inner seals drive nuts A single experience of enlightenment does not mark the end of training; continued diligence and effort are necessary for progress in the Way.

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Poor People

too much food annoying convention more past people dishes no restraint loving misguided gladly be there any pounds unwelcome liqueurs tequila new old friends dubious personality dissections Madonna Bob Dylan the Beatles common wealth French silver to father what are poor people doing

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

One Waking

prethank Julian mysterious screensaver rock surface blue gray rust Alfred being all places all time one waking unfolding all loving harmonizes eternal geometry sound light psychedelic body humming prethank peace for people health for self

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

One More

strange weariness straggle house lie bed unmoving under afghan listen NPR drift disembodied rise restored stage dinner serious conversational issues move past one more hand solitaire one more fruit jelly transcribing hard rest good hygiene Julian coming two days train quiet time digs play ideas arise practical other plan college homey vision stay open fly back?

Monday, November 20, 2006

What Gives

Joe Cino 75 laughing in heaven I hope dead have birthdays only living parties I guess we all have to miss something which vulnerability triggered you never know till happens opera confraternity family holidays websites love sharing what gives who knows other issues emerging cultures in chaos idealized past our culprit glory spirit soaring

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Two Poets

poetry people gather Paulann's afternoon wine coffee sweets (pots de crême) talk candles colored leaves clinging rainy light books anthologies two poets read poems farm boy looking back elective poignance Cambridge translate English into English sweet warmth old friends she kissed me everyone someone I will never catch up Oregon City scenic detour fog home dark

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Good Work

grandmother granddaughter cooking a soufflé! relaxing me self-satisfied writing progress end in view he dies revision begins books overlap a multibook revision meanwhile play what a life revelation day unpredictable outcome I'll go party Paulann poets take Stephen meet Kelley there or not spinning forward doing some or more than revealed writer's secret good work

Friday, November 17, 2006

Barely Poetry

lost Richard accepted David Erika called Shawn cast wavering ahead chilly routine drive swim shop get poems asked join Arts Association board be president treasurer must resist decline it's not my thing I'm interested theatre literature music publishing barely poetry enough home lunch read nap write play Kuhlau cook mudslide closed Mt. Hood skiing Lora-Faye came here

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Town Ideal

car miraculously well again radio working corroded battery terminals weak excuse cellphone charged up knee going out Mozart Schumann used up new what now back to Bach Brahms Debussy Schubert not now Scarlatti harpsichord honey Norman Rockwell town ideal embrace it Tchaikovsky still soars life mind all art reflection repeats praise participants

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Still Looking

beauty promise happiness thanks Stendhal natural storyteller fickle web crawlers fail digging "Eros" one unforgettable hand-job actors audition choose quickly easily fill roles save one still looking perfect Susan dancer comes tomorrow dream vision all at once everything poems Johnny book emails blog Mozart Netflix love my GTI recovering generations pass present will

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Too Happy

poems pour in quality printing requires money why am I blithe Ginger steps up thinking clearly I am too happy easy over fatal gambit trusting chance my luck holding process its own solution

Monday, November 13, 2006

Blind Creation

hobbling housework leaves me lame new pills delivered rational dose my car disabled imagines I'm stealing it shuts off I'm stranded downtown in rain dark phone friends Steve kindly rescues drives me home my thanks casting swift good eight of ten play sounds O.K. adventure ahead three weeks yet window other work then plunge two months I know process collaborate familiars blind creation intention action new people emerge

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Bad Luck

apologies killing spiders bad luck karma but we can't have them in bed biting us wind here roaring pressure lights flicker scary might blow down trees on house on me blow roof off barn or anything honor fear great nature critical habitat

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Not Thinking

do I have to go on forever for myself my one reader what is the game I started not thinking go for 1,000 anything arbitrary beyond indulging secret what ever means doing cop out later

Friday, November 10, 2006

I Float

approximate value zero now I say sharp words cut both ways so O.K. laugh let be what is glad challenge rain wind cold sole swimmer huge warm pool guard watch talk change fantasy project moot I float anyway screaming approval kids loved joke smut good will covered gaps lapses cheerful messages await discovery

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Public Duties

"Repo Man" one a.m. best time pretty dumb "Wicker Man" just as bad really stupid cult "Betty Blue" prime eve great sad naked film public duties interest me less than private acting investigations being various forms distraction whiling idly generating words

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Two Bags

good news goodbye Republicans Rumsfeld let's hope the Democrats have some ideas big slow U-turn barely time for the world hilltop sunny valley rainy gray-bearded trudger slicker two bags which dominates more happiness than misery more hope than despair always arising ingenuity positive desire aesthetic polymorphous within beyond discomfort is only birth

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Whole Logs

creek flooding movie weather rain blown sideways whole logs drown picnic ground rushing taking fence land line down no email internet helpless disconnected no hurry resume whenever habit hardly serious we are subject to disruption car radio inoperative safer most expect continue unprepared surprise

Monday, November 06, 2006

Nothing Personal

putting people together Marya Remy dances Bicky Sage Hens ride good deeds accumulate ego free interest glad fun George Burtness president Lobero thriving David Asbell can I use their names nothing personal any of it count lines drawing scale reality supercedes imagined light bubbles float midair how do needed another special Leslie window only now I realize this weather better rain wind dark clouds writhing than bright steady sun

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Full Moon

wind roaring tall oaks thrash full moon clouds thin inky wet asphalt leaves black rain not exactly balmy crash lights flash sun rose potent bright morn hot pack sweater peach linen shirt enough pause runway savor day cloudless bounty pouring down north land slowly lost plunged fog murk darker descend blind sudden sight drops tear past we're down green gold home

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Real Goat

praise everyone rightly they are good fierce committed acting strong design impeccable cuing smart skilled stage direction Maurie master doing it now the audience could only be impressed moved amazed despite distracting woe woman second row center heart attack Paul helped her depart call paramedics then it flew magnificent second scene Leslie Bobby in the groove third Adam Tom revelations every time real goat bright praise Albee for a brilliant play

Friday, November 03, 2006

Wrong Food

remembering Richard Gilman visiting Vie Marianne Audrey spare change warrant Santa Cruz talk drink look art force nature wrong food inevitable decline enough when real years forget omission feet up cheese whisky preview audience laughs ovation appreciate how much we care

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Light Man

why is everybody filling me in on everything that has been happening in Santa Barbara because I used to be a journalist here and wanted to know everything now I am not and do not care good luck to all as for the play all I have to worry about is the lights not my problem distributing comps paying deciding this and that about the set props any of it great play great actors but I am not a critic anymore not judging or giving out prizes only the light man glad of it

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Work Day

oh tired but happy at last work day lights up connected focused cues made corrected tech actors happy too funny how hard we work for art self sake no one else can understand our cunning conviction craft and joy social engagements pale real estate talk dogs perfect food house view I fled back to work what I love to do