Wednesday, January 31, 2007


solitaire is soothing I forget I'm sick while the hand plays out Canfield or old-fashioned patience putting off real feeling doing anything nothing reading Alice Hoffman New Yorker horror stories everything loses its charm conviction point I can't stay bed stop being even this must count better later grapes then lapse fear dreams woozy warpage dull flat type address lists stand up oops tomorrow theatre if I dare to go

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Being Sick

vitamin C echinacea goldenseal ephedra tea Yin Chiao pills + usual St. John's wort Mega Men joint formula fish oil I really hate being sick only gradually happier as day wears on work a little defeated by Word finish Wendy Wasserstein "Elements of Style" what an odd touching performance I dream of New York whisky aspirin for night stay up late as I can

Monday, January 29, 2007

Memory Foam

still January gas dependent electric schedule even staying home tense neck tired eyes tasty curry cognac toast our poetry book yes heated seats ASR mystery button a question of tooth memory foam is it a con job sleep as well in summer

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Fine Linen

undue slowness give in have cold I am not the one listening Poirot boy radio dark iron fine linen guest towels give up normal days repeating smile be happy in love again still ourselves rare well done briefly apart

Saturday, January 27, 2007

At Capacity

Icelandic symphony Japanese music Long Island eloquence dog love naps "Butterfly" CPR training coincident too me for more routine at capacity free Sabbath rove centuries world here now seasoned sunshine oaks expand further writing past present limits attempt Everest before youth forgets context bless parents genes enough or not art something else practical chores build strength no different soul body only real time

Friday, January 26, 2007

Not Us

Hrant Dink editor shot latest Armenian victim insult our own identity American truth painful Bush OKs killing Iranis in Iraq how does it help not us turning forward need lead sanity sense

Swim Faster

where was I typing a bookful of poems giving Pearl Chase a break admirable application will win without trying mistake self-defeat what story observe energy arisen swim faster natural punctuation

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Special Water

meet about dam above town leaking dubious City Council wake up take it out right now dawn dark deep fog late light snuggle rise warming house pee naked pills special water kundalini stretches sat nam breaths thank zafu grapefruit granola launch me into day meetings poetry newspaper tennis (go Roger Serena!) do end Pearl Chase script slog

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Night Light

so dark I hear the creek rushing by below the pastures fences invited trees becoming dog barks far away partial waxing moon glowing cloud Pleiades visible only sideways Tom tokes murmurs disappears no still night lights timed off pick sonatas for me vitamin C blissed recipient

Like a Dance

perfection seems to hover over us like a dance of unearthly figures (Auerbach on Dante) "This Book Will Save Your Life" wonderful novel by A. M. Homes exceptional movies watch now: "Land of Plenty" (Wenders 2005) "Country" "Basquiat" "Betty Blue" "Pollock" "Confusion of Genders" "Don't Come Knocking" "Contempt" "Full Frontal" "Mysterious Skin"

Sunday, January 21, 2007

High Buzzing

in my ears high buzzing more hiss than whistle over music over road noise silence forgotten in talking radio play absorption story actors acting going so far exacting nighttime driving inexact flaring lights drill brain I can't see in darkness no one can narrow road high beams only hope lights battle darkness always wins loses sunrise even dark day like today enables waking warm theatre action maybe beyond prop management

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Other Trees

random writing sounds like something random courage sons report glad schooling glad thriving remember me other trees replacing gone better other has to be true

Friday, January 19, 2007

Better Proust

Homer gory Virgil Dante better tennis champions young fighting Central Park something to break cycle still goes on better Proust than epic battles fantasy killing same subject pain sorrow waste exultant victors more subtly destroyed inner burps farts toenails organs teeth hair growing sweat wrinkles not enough fire flood collisions age what thinking

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Tight Belt

weather stuck typical here crazy virus attack whoosh then gone citrus fails skiers frustrated emergency is anybody there tight belt nobody touching

A Question

when I am eighty who will move my bones

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Come Home

U.S. out of Iraq right now we made crisis but we can't fix it destroyed their infrastructure disbanded their security set them against each other they can't fix it with us there shelling bombing their cities doesn't help breaking into their houses doesn't help driving around armored doesn't help walking around armed doesn't help protecting our forces doesn't help Army Marines come home not just from Iraq from all countries diplomats only belong abroad think how we'd feel another nation's soldiers here Chinese patrolling our streets Bulgarians rewriting our laws Argentines securing our borders Indonesians protecting our leaders anybody at all building bases on American soil but we have bases everywhere threatening bullying bribing meddling too much military not too little because we are doing too much soldiers come home study war no more practice peace

Monday, January 15, 2007

Nothing There

let go give in sometimes feel it force failing as lights flicker go out back on not always forever read fiction abandoned possible alternative write something fact escaping too complex my mind reels nothing there beneath me love is real sustaining separate persons falling gods tragic fate

Sunday, January 14, 2007

What He Likes

organ soprano flute myself alone as audience bright resonant church Romanian invocation then Bach alternating Christopher Wicks read Billy Collins on what he likes in poetry lovely history multiplies questions in what sense was Pearl Chase Bernhard Hoffmann's secretary one example who started Community Arts what of early Montecito then there's Chase Palm Park I tire not neither do I spin fast enough to do read all awaits ready emerge invited weary typing talk tablet hundreds thousands words aieee! we err on the side of you guessed it yes

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Go On

Kolkata now that's news to me a little bit of acknowledgement inspires you to go on what's happening not enough I pace restless adrift bad news getting worse this fix inextricable reason useless can't undo mistakes my own equal better face couldn't dream it otherwise

Friday, January 12, 2007

Ghost Opening

ghost opening coldest night my play not happening lost energy inspiration unshown we speak taboo calmly warm difficult easy with each other dine delicious sympathy true epic Virgil adventure savage gods demanding slaughter our wars their petty proxy eternal facticity human duty honors what we can't deny

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Snow Day

hobbling queasy napped resilient count on it always morning light snow day let go bedroom bright picture me as queen share world amusing now then painfully self- conscious seems to say something lipstick dreamy eyes hand king's knee sang "Spring Is Here" to boys

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

What to Do

flowing staccato chaos lyrical stillness lost time early birthday later isolation call someone go out stay put snow suddenly falls blue sky reappears our happy color use it warm water all over move decimal lessen gravity one two meeting cancelled too bad yep someone tell me what to do

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Twenties Mind

books keep coming Gore Vidal finished here's George Trow whole life hobby Marshall Mason on directing Viola Spolin barely sampled I too know printing Bobby Wagner falling dominant prep school transition business twenties mind cold coming I shut down studio save propane come inside warm house reading Aeneid out attack video script I've promised to improve thinking surgery fragility age is real another stage no fiction performing actual mortality

Monday, January 08, 2007

Reach Out

optimism gratitude mindfulness hope generosity couldn't find my car reality thin kids in T-shirts January wet pleasant appetite accumulates road flow pastries anything dress rehearsal no curtain call staged no one focuses help me reach out John responds thanks John sea voyage gutter repairs Carol helping database track poetry supporters positive psychology Haydn sorry history since

Saturday, January 06, 2007

All Think

planning poetry festival who when where imagine institution lives longly intense decisions emerge willful group inevitable action so many poets arranging words we all think provoke opinion need be always about something instant snatch actual sufficient

Friday, January 05, 2007

Never Enough

poems accepted Christmas put away blustering wet wind treacherous gods ensnare Aeneas willingly manipulated simpler here between sheets another borrowed pillow comforts aching hips new slip-ons feed mature embracing difference never enough open days

Thursday, January 04, 2007

What Sum

pretending same living lame contented playing solitaire eventually one works out no bed escape night dread gravity not restful floating dream strange haunting something else arthritis weak willing inertia Nick Ray smoking dying working this week poetry next Pearl Chase then Johnny visited again inscrutable what sum allows discreet withdraw loving happy friends precious far away

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Two Worlds

praise American manufacture proprietary process models oil flow engineering anything simple complex heavy acid I find no overlap how friend Snow's two worlds continue big industrial buildings lurk unnoticed beyond aesthetic every product secretly made

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Far Away

twenty plus us new miscellany gathered my independence uncompromised longings for bookchat movie lore and insight something more than anecdotes unfulfilled glamour is dead referents unrecognizable this littler world view foggy wet and far away two enough talked out thought circling in

Monday, January 01, 2007

Same Doubt

bright moon light night party hit pooped after giving Aaron Spelling my comb woke fright sick snap zounds rise write going second week recovered equal being possibly more then the cleanup quickly done daze teamwork pack clean getaway procedure robed cold shoulder expose weak willing partner mark start despite same doubt