Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Horse Talker

house guest horse talker "blizzard" coming medical crisis horse like children hold hands Hank lame isotopes torn ligament detached back give me something glad not married unaccustomed clutter change easy absorb anymore opera projects ripening as we speak listing images resequencing life story theatres periods places people everywhere imagining

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Still Here

images days fading brightens princely art strange Hesse history younger Holbein amazing mayor madonna realer than life despite RAF castle bombed out brief spasm avoid destruction it will pass this generation age fashions tastes social ritual alliances be still here bizarre drive for superiority imagine oneself royalty someone really

Monday, November 28, 2005

New Account

time running two weeks here then there rehearsing city people life writing Ronnie Bangkok exchange books ponder character identity struggle Word page numbering notoriously clumsy frustrated banker ridiculous personality misinformed new account New York money ready spend pay flowing abstract actual soon

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Making Movies

moment of truth Gwen Robin said you dont love enough should be making movies stuck in a seedy resort hotel Alfred 101 405 LAX Hannah deer spring pasture green eggs Times clean circle rooms vacuum dust mop wet mop "Me You Everybody Know" time soon quit boards write distract less focus worktime never riper now or not

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Too Much

when will I be serious never too much music art pleasure beautifully revealing misery transcended traditional form renewed when is it time not repeating channeled skin- bounded heartbeat seasons rhythm what concentration yields breakthrough noble insight redeem humanity "music is gorgeous the waves slap the beaches and you are having a wonderful time inside" is that it yes what else is loving one other all single time self solo realize whole raga wired search past irony sense another stop beyond what this not even special moment tasting chocolate what should I do tasks present placidly ready set directed chemistry unfold

Friday, November 25, 2005

Full Circle

secretarial duties despatched dont wonder what to do do whatever any to be done the story is not leaving but coming back full circle Jean-Claude too Jerry Tallmer called will appear La Mama wants script writing multi papers rain dark shopping weight longing mellow film overcooked grip fool tradition sentimental stuffed

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Both Ways

move big hay bales tractor hook makes happy thanks peace health love welcoming community here New York hearts exercised swimming living burn disk new computer zest orange cranberries winter sky sunny days gone by Alfred Ojai Müllers Julian dire phone croak love both ways

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Much Risque

Ms. Churchill seems to be saying that life presents us with an infinite array of possibilities, but we restrict our options by reacting to them in the same, predictable ways. Much risque must be run to achieve great and Brilliant actions. (Nelson) list calls publicity clean gutters date tapas Paris Trio Haydn Ravel Schubert bonus Beethoven pleasure worth drive anything dream Warhol sculpture left four-footed reading Jean Giono cholera world sick but Im well warm expressive

Monday, November 21, 2005

Glowing Stillness

Sharon peace party pray right unfair good change affirm anything better pity victims everywhere concentrated else normal blessings prevalent here pay open heart mind healthy acts glowing stillness ears awake await Godot there she is now improvising structures desire sensation thought

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Exactly Enough

poring over Lulu Julia designing book cover image boat canal modern houses dire mood graphics play image headline Daily News so excited I had to take a nap walk along creek flowing fierce low electric fence beavers bow hunter stalks buck dawn 32 exactly enough

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Wish List

Josh Leo "prolific" 63 the cusp of old age amusing transfigure continuity restored confident new better learn all the time wish list theater finish started porch paint electric youth fresh now small world serve farmers brighten better live laugh wake

Friday, November 18, 2005

Thanks Gas

half hour then cook eat stuff balloons trumpets flutes tambourine write song insulated killer cold bright box warmth thanks gas natural misery delayed now comfy unfear seasons ruthless ravage chocolate boom distant veil of sound water substances actions persons need rolling backward globe turn around!

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Descending Runs

Dancer my horse put down given 1999 Hearts Adaptive Riding happy afterlife loved loving walnut leaves fall like rain affected Didion meticulous death book dream houses city crowd wake think publicity challenge get press sell tickets Beethoven Op. 90 coming strong fast descending runs intricate graceful art without which life is not worth living

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Waning Days

afraid involved be taken away touched quick breakfast Pluto flood victims Indians infected my own fantasy rut squishy mud dissolving moodless marooned in happy routine love bonus healthy helping self manifest dream how live calm consuming reflexive contained fight back waning days cram light warmth creative action reach out go inward tubules circuits fingertips toes heart water fluid air

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Fun in Parts

Carol won open class Oregon Mtn Trail Champ fan club proud diligence rewarded money thrill pleasure "Last Waltz" Robbie Robertson so cool "Fokkers" fun in parts on message truckin time bucks attack my Italian cypresses emergency fence Soren legacy missing third act alas I cant sit through it anything too worked out balloons get away mind inconsolably open

Monday, November 14, 2005

Last Link

Noel Coward companion actor singer dies 87 last link something I played Coward character "Man Came Dinner" 16 sang saw himself "Sail Away" lame already nostalgic not even dead connecting actors scheduling rehearsals buying computer ordering warm pants writing release finishing website "Dogs Bark All Night" 2000 eloquent passionate tender direct against war for compassion justice joy

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Too Obscure

something will occur to me if I sit here long enough mind emptied theatre afternoon increasingly irrelevant they care feel competent I bungle cash register patronize actors some good others just not my thing spoiled quality great art no joke work play too obscure

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Rainy Roads

advantageous marriage early tantamount safety jungle New York Times sez few type outside pages novel at Eugene trail course Zola horse race whither style wit Portland book awards polished realness writers praise rainy roads between numbing mind watching motor reflex hesitates touching sincerities daunting will unbearable Nana walking see what animals asked

Friday, November 11, 2005

Chinese Flowers

briskness concision acceptable motives farce requirements reeling dizzily across rained-on room thanks poignant Lindsay Anderson called Patti took on costuming "Trouble" team glue love Veterans Day off swim no work need I too recover yielding ordinary vantage limits joy like Chinese flowers boy bounce leap rope splash consult map inhale image shining street blurred lights ballroom mean arrive on schedule time again

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Star Moves

each scene how invested passing through responsible dependable independent free grid rhythm star moves rivers roads hunger satisfied arising undeserved blessings flow poets theatricals bumble slow develop see this our life crystal service delighting time lit chocolate amber special lavender moon wax Indian flute flesh experience responds young night invites expansion what find beyond no careful hoarding meaning spend plenty more dimensions rut synaptic leap golden anyone unfolding unguessed petals

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Status Alert

invisible authority ideal directing Living writhing waking distressed The true nature of human consciousness—in the time that can be spared from the quest for food, sex, and whatnot—is to enjoy itself by every means possible. status alert nine more pages to make links to activate learn coding hours work every day necessary progress ready go clock creek running full

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Accepted Narrative

R. C. Gorman gone the accepted narrative John Fowles nowhere now Misty! Shame on you! You lied and cheated a 90-year-old woman! You were paid to clean out storage unit and instead you dumped a pee-stained queen mattress on me. fog chill gloves Overture French manner kumquat marmalade

Monday, November 07, 2005

Various Breathing

glad green though war goes on Carol oasis of outdoors inside airport welcome hug I always unpack immediately organ recital Christopher Wicks this his instrument Baroque Frescobaldi to Bach German Italian French happy close again pool full routine spa warmup 104 forty minutes deep-water workout eight laps various breathing strokes two laps kick fins stretch shower feel good

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Opening Night

dream "Trouble" lights another sunny yoga break easy Alfred drum choice Mali after all museum book sale non-art Truffaut Hitchcock Bicky Super-Rica Dennis Franz Arturo Tello Pam Schiffer Montecito Bill Hart Brooklyn fix areas at last add back diagonals Derek massage cues thanks Brad home hottub pack Bicky cooked good Alfred Hannah pick up John Alexander opening night house full friends first play flew funny crazy my lights fine terrific actors second gripped end slumped triumphant Genesis West return Maurie better ever party CAF Lackners Tom-Mike Mo wacko happy job well done worth return ready home

Perfect Timing

shooting star end flash mountains weary weightless water 103 Maurie ended happy actors eager audience brighter better flowers I forget how hard it is others like my lights but I see flaws could please start over whole different this skeleton sketch Brad will make it good see how add lekos style what is plays are what are perfect timing Alfred music Scotch Chads eat final dress

Friday, November 04, 2005

Renting Skates

dreaming Johnny wakes me in a cap renting skates roller ice unclear talk scramble radio lunch Tom Jacobs catch up theatre pro time best critic patience best teacher (Chopin) looks like Bicky it is hello Jerry shares bad news George dear home nap flu shot on theatre race toward opening night

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Buck Attack

Oregon report buck attack birthday flowering plum rub antlers strip bark kill mad shoot meanwhile good play work set behind no Tal breakfast Bicky coffee Bobby dear lunch Alfred try drums nap refocus blocked carpentry sawdust clutter Intermezzo steak arugula zinfandel shop shoes again gray excellent tempt think cashmere silk grueling rehearsal no complaint soak hottub stars bed warm sleepy glad here home where it is

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Old Friends

old friends back together doing play comfortable vibe grueling set a day behind shockingly exhausted my crunch setting lights Brad first-class techie cue-to-cue tonight creative catchup actors practiced conviction glamour two hours lunch La Super-Rica back two hours focus drive up hill dazed nap groggy supper cleanup ready tech