Fresh Will

"depart from established expectations and wipe the slate clean each day" unitary brain function memory needs attention key rules don't apply perish trap inertia gravity matrix past future identify made mistakes fresh will eyes good intention focused burns through everything existing

Extreme Ants

fragments "Immortal Beloved" "Sisters Rosensweig" love confusion fly over Moldau London neighborhoods pretty little backyards aerial companions lost land softly whole day soft extreme ants where go what do movies plays write read music phoning shopping at home library garden walk off into mountains if I could walk silent emptiness arising illumination simple holy blissful here

Wild Excitement

win win back to Brush Creek no hard feelings necessary something to light mail brochures write letters so the day goes still chilly surrounded by flowers beyond Brahms bees literary art film endless possibilities recur new forms this others behind hype happen pity miss peril virtuosity wild excitement

No Fear

letter returned Remy moved on marches time dancing same moves again again like a very complicated mechanical clock cell talker snubs cop no manners no fear meticulous detail our pleasure in the making

Mouse Nest

back from Rome proofreading poetry different voices take me away Haydn rain on skylight incense against mouse nest stink necessary expenses extend Alfred e-mail glad let's do it fill life full

Spring Chill

tug bedspread flat shut powder room door polish mirror wipe kitchen counters dust piano is this working pick up carpet nibs fluff pillows alphabetize books iron watch surreal tv a minute cross legs consider life imagine play vague spark idea rush actual logistics money energy organize months while waiting studio warm spring chill

Classical Ground

pondering the transcience of human dream tiny dandelions multiply sick past adrift present classical ground Cicero novelized learn how movies work villainy uncorrectable justice too late broken heart half mended single flavors merge music hardly heard mind senses precede sense saving papers for my day in court

Extreme Adagio

seek find dictionary stand birthday return magnifying glass shelf hear see fine thanks extreme adagio like a cashmere embrace warming do it again again Brahms happy but alone inspired Anne light intuition strong as Wagner ferocious final dress best seat around me empty in groove practical tasks fall to the tipping globe

My Circle

Bach 322 solstice drum circle celebrate color warmth new beginnings returning birds nesting lambs kits my studio back where is my circle why don't I have one departure for Paris fraught ambiguity entangled vague chilled discomfort do something call Maurie discuss budgets new play developing well inside the egg

Call Me

pangs of memory menace of boredom fear of impending catastrophe love soldiers art tears joy thanks Andre Aciman "Call Me" John Cameron Mitchell "Shortbus" tenderness our best strength feeling for oneself others sweet looks embraces

My Name

not interesting except perhaps to one you calling my name to from solitude not greatly or I'd have more fans who love desire my words thoughts body pouring more for any juices fruiting mindful music in an empty forest

Hazard

history is wars what else is new and plagues these pleasant interludes a brief no it usually happens elsewhere soul's whereabouts hazard fate exact reality unfolds you find yourself here bombs helicopters ruin pain grief fear no daffodils mowing quiet mourning continued diligent alertness manifest

Cut Once

false positive thinking mothered exemplary confused the modern self among others who care less think twice cut once convene jury inner judge last word incomparable emotion mist theatrical colors accumulated errors misconstrued virtues what would you do what retroactive meds heal misunderstanding

Not Forever

capacity crunch millions more flying madness unnatural humans can't fly artificial energy splurge not forever expecting everywhere all complain day drift less eating let yourself be

Spring Cleaning

falling plate flying train apart filing spring cleaning paint floor quotidian void can't stop there swim meet talk drive Portland dinner Anne here lighting Wagner meaning pattern glimmer hide reminding me I know you love heart beating

What Else

romantic dinner date recurrent some things improve with age meanwhile play delayed no trip Santa Barbara spring first robin new colors what else am I to do Johnny book finished move on only oneself viva la revolución

Whose Pain

how are we different still here paying taxes trying to be real as if our democracy works Iraq is Bush's Poland how are we different Leni Riefenstahl more energetic more artist more craft obsessed friendlier with power how are we different these are not moral distinctions nation changing falling pit killing bombing hope how different are we whose pain can feel

Yum Yum

eating elephants giant sloths mammoths yum yum acorns wild nuts berries camas roots wild onions steelhead eel gone elk squirrels rabbits raccoons deer still no going back too many humans would fight two generations hence what little remains undone by stupid burial mounds leveled parking knowing better doesn't help conscience comfort

Accident Report

A fully loaded cement truck fell off a ramp and squashed his little Honda like a bug. The steering linkage suddenly let go on an outside curve on southbound U.S. 1 in Big Sur and he bounced down the rock face into the Pacific. A gasoline tanker going too fast down the Grapevine rolled over on him and burst into flames. Drive less.

Good Luck

Mexicans stopped by the highway cop cars flashing one unmarked cops doing their misguided job human tragedy feel pall spread Mexican at Aquatic Center asks me phone for him apologetic limited English learn location applying for a job good luck Mexican workers needed here sincerely trying making lives cruel pinch drive speed limit hide lie low sell out go back

Where Else

right left both wrong where else can we go how anywhere finish decline recline sorry live in past relishing Beethoven remember prior masters present opportunity as good "Of all the enemies of public liberty, war is perhaps the most to be dreaded, because it comprises and develops the germ of every other. War is the parent of armies. From these proceed debts and taxes. And armies, debts, and taxes are the known instruments for bringing the many under the domination of the few." (James Madison)

Your Eyes

scattered restless sap rising too many books no attention projects completing opening further needs opportunities no matter time life ordered ten ISBNs lifetime publisher on writing who will read no meaning without your eyes

Just About

monitory minatory hortatory stochastic word poetry that just about covers it book draft done everything in I can think of reiteration years in the writing overjoyed another month editing then I can fly away apart imagine something else direct Alfred acting what where window opening art fun calling come out play

Our Job

grotesque Russian multiple realities no one wants go it's our job insulated valiantly denying needed imagining makes it so costless good intentions parading meet for coffee polish book sentimental me love my little life

Lovely Words

self-absorption to the nth Tom McCarthy "Remainder" weird trip chilling novel who else I know reads fiction some few at least then Frigyes Hidas Requiem right eye not focusing lush beauty power timeless texts loud thanks acoustic clouds home phone alone chicken mole rice medley broccoli so lovely words

Dog Fights

something funny uses of language exercises mind heart laughing heals "Amores Perros" harshly spare myself dog fights ill humor admire Beatrix Potter's practical effect Joan Acocella's vivid judgment snappy writing wise patient will

Serious Play

new theatre rules slap my face clueless younger try to grow up not much left of brotherhood art love high bliss making beauty appreciating fine distinctions will work for joy serious play

Clean Up

shelling neighborhoods now how can that help more fighters more fight duh bring them home find something constructive for them to do plenty needs clean up repair improve housing occupiers everybody's enemy we need them here