Saturday, December 31, 2005

New Technique

always looking around never still searching eyes faces beauty sorrow joy white sky fragments fall big light flakes draw wild lines space between walls Rosalyn Tureck insists credit her new technique perfect transparent Bach

Friday, December 30, 2005

Raw Food

Silver Creek is flooding the lower pasture where we planted the native saplings Carol took up the electric beaver fence Hannah wants to go back to India she and Alfred can be together in the monastery if they say they are married Steve moving to Shanghai for three years learning Mandarin Jean-Claude writing a romance novel eating only raw food nearly a million people are coming to Times Square tomorrow night I am living a block away what am I going to do

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Step Aside

why war Jean-Claude play asks mine plays lovelessness he thinks lack of feeling am I hopeless escapist allowing Hitler how to handle history step aside his earnest face-off not my way

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Too Crazy

what I was afraid of was the bomb smuggled in bring the whole thing down in agonies of ruin wrong place once arrived afraid of nothing gloried density investment all creative acts the local streets too crazy though as New Years nears decisions interview by Jerry Tallmer still truckin down the a-ve-nue otherwise nervous breathe 3000 postcards just in time to burn regretting none of my loves mainly present Alfred never lets me down

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Elevator Heels

remix pard-on we are intelligent mushrooms bicoastal homelife come together elevator heels vibrating lap Spanish high on rented colors floatable sense action misled rehearsal prop salted horses grazing machine noise crazy neighbors drunk hunch distance each another

Monday, December 26, 2005

Christmas Past

naked harpsichord dawn overlooking gray sea dressed read Times oatmeal first then eggs no veggie sausage me ick packed piano favorites one wiper blade missing flip it forward wave immense fondness Dan mutual rough studio art chaos everywhere amazing odd creations gave me beautiful painting Ha Long Bay tiny watercolor Stonington sea blue film glad back city wild Donald came in added blinds lace curtains new pillows books video wreath floor tape failed again Christmas past ate walked out phoned home ready work

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Delicate Piano

both sons happy happy father Julian peaceful Nefi Oakland Alfred walking Walden Pond oatmeal stockings presents here silk gourd rattle sage bath feast talk light serious personalities respite foghorn child wavelets delicate piano "Bob Flambeur" Alan computer Troy Brazil tips Ana Costa Rica happy Christmas

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Christmas Eve

city morning Stonington starry night via bus terminal lower level present crowd no visible order every seat taken champion talker L.A. earplugs Jhumpa Lahiri good read it zigzag thru Harlem Bronx no traffic Foxwoods Dan friend true artist studio Old Mystic salvage Honda halves two cars welded muffler falls jams lifts up rear remove dirty hands church full children animals pageant collection communion none for me thanks party call home cold point exquisite village construction zone most closed up winter

Friday, December 23, 2005

Tiny Sprouts

is anybody reading this oh whats the point no diary no lit my energy going into play living city friends Bill Hart again Afghani solstice closer Missouri Libras directors more to say than ever no one paying reading cares Christmas bearing down subway running presents wrapped actors learning lines I hope love weeding my wildflower garden tiny sprouts defying winter

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Different Shoes

Drama Bookshop Shepard Bottoms Liebowitz photos Times tower how be so good clear walkers coping people overcome adversity Dino stuck 59th Street Bridge not moving they beat me to theatre started rehearsing sans director fine répétition learn lines ideas are mine creative change clarify slide flashback Hamptons complex scene move space time mind heart persons being walk from Empire State Building feet up different shoes first bad taximan Lincoln Center find hamburger see "Light Piazza" thanks Patti romantic story beautiful music dynamite cast overelaborate production values we loved it walked briskly home strike over

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

No Pants

sketches at last proscenium curtain surprise as long as it looks deliberate rush train India no pants late bang six buried climb watch out no shoes day off shop food spill coffee clean Serena Hanon Judith ill Rockefeller Center Saks Saint Patrick holy water Greek coffee crystal star Gap Love Saint Thomas Ceremony Carols 21 boy choir harp heavenly tears come easy dim candles Christmas gospel Messiaen slip away cold home tofu celebrate solstice holy sun return

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Human Energy

the trick is to just do it so sez Sal wisdom at the time more art over sushi positive precious friend human energy no crisis wasted suffering joy discover change rocking Cesaria Evora washerwoman star Christmas lights tree presents paintings nuts after excellent rehearsal despite strike traffic hard on working poor gallant citizen consumers striving to spend

Monday, December 19, 2005

Another Person

how comes it that chaos rules yet the city functions despite transit strike disruption looms actors stranded how comes it I relax my shoulders function grapefruits organic parmesan clean sheets warm toes touch tight space opens Alfred acts and another person emerges

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Who Else

Nick Cernovich Montreal 76 56 minutes phone rapport so many friends remember Jimmy Waring Katie Litz dedication beauty purity children who else knows lighting limited explored film medium of our time Russell Krum West Palm 60 coincidental survivors questions Caffè Reggio Ralph Barry Katherine value direct transmission I am happy to provide

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Five Decades

monologue La Mama success reviewed five decades work my life in personal theatre relaxed on message image projection smooth friendly audience accepted honored interested applauded Alfred my doing range multilayered familiar me surprising them thanks Carol years dues paid now I can focus on "Trouble"

Friday, December 16, 2005

Vicious Dog

Fred in Berkshires earth shroud two deaths one day heavy who was the baby in my dream who the vicious dog I killed smashed puppets twig broom no more Starbucks yoga first week did enough must be learning the space actors show up take meaning repeat practical busyness artful

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Alfred Brooks

pianist composer dancer choreographer died last night Denver 88 uncle mentor inspiration friend artistic road companion prolific life devoted new work all media alone last years dear Maxine great love partner gone before strength lost grace remained but for him I would not be here today New York rehearsing play countless others benefited too encouraged enabled amused produced at their gallant theatre remember the work of beauty never ends

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Moon Love

brr 16 breakfast news Gyorgy Sandor mourn Chromatic Fantasy and Fugue post office line Lewis plan reunion 13 coming Kathryn Alfred rehearsal joy cold then hot give all message Nancy Al Brooks hospice may be last days Peter Shumann interviewed postcards in shop organic market get real here subway pause friendly mellow New Yorkers strike threat remember wine good home dinner used up email continue type "Donovans Brain" gorilla 42nd Street moon love spans America

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

My Turn

Barry Judith 14th Street subway greet temperature dropping Florent favorite restaurant same Ben Michelle touching amused walk together Bleecker same morning 17 day off no way rehearse no Kathryn bought shoes emailed everybody my turn La Mama Saturday afternooon Michael Smith five decades theatre work Metropolitan Museum same art lovers Prague too solemn Christian bizarrely rich moderns like shopping Picasso Braque pieces same painting later bigger wore out sated home Kathryn phoned O.K. took Alfred "Spamalot" tonight fabulous hit thrill witness work so well

Monday, December 12, 2005

Email Crazies

snowflakes 42nd street email crazies schedule questions floating dreams Kathryn seizure hospital keeps her opens Thursday another show dear directed Alfred Renato love it talked Patti costumes set wardrobe search no shoes cold draft home chill before dinner Ben Michelle aunt babysits

Sunday, December 11, 2005

People People

city life established people people call walk subway exquisite Japanese tiny storefront tidy plywood counters seaweed ginger noodles veggies egg plans materialize actors appear read play it almost all makes sense relief pool not large expensive hmm to be wet every window doorway amazing ingenuity my own past echoes least party Bob Dahdah walks out movies ten f word dreams infected Heide oldest friend Doric Wilson at it young theatricals more interested than I am shop head home feet up happy quiet

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Precious Refuge

my feet hurt as if I walked across the country instead of lying awake all night till dreamed the Living Theatre talking in the other room glad see me good up four-thirty drive dark sit in plane two hours desperate window happy aisle five more flying reading napping mouth falling open meet Alfred plane stunned bus heavy bags city thanks Donald precious refuge stock up foodstuffs ogle Times Square unpack here

Friday, December 09, 2005

Another Me

leaving is such an ego trip I cant stand myself miss poetry meeting anxiety attacks everything down to the line loose ends frantic feeling unraveling fourth boundless state is equanimity in the morning I will be gone from here from love in the evening I will be somewhere else another me fret over scan resolution let it be

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Falling Down

Pearl Harbor suddenly remember shock and awe everything changed four years later it was over I was ten World War my childhood far battles newsreels photogravure John Lennon barns falling down sunlit mud easy errands lost card found my Christmas fluid lyrical overwhelmed rest a while let go biography always downhill end

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Hand Mouth

tried out my slideshow thanks Carol not bad nervous at first strange hand mouth gestures Brush Creek flap played out public emails I support artists even bad for freedom forever scheming grants last projects tense shoulders relax after tryout touch friendly winter night

Monday, December 05, 2005

Piano Hands

last words ball that lights up when you bounce it granddaughter: look what I got Wow! Al asleep beautiful piano hands unmarked age comfort holding own dancer feet

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Pink Roses

our party night Davids Messiah Chicago phoned after standing ovation Silverton friends not bad two years hand picked two dozen pink roses mop polish silver handsome welcome twilight gathering wine my chili music let me play Italian songs Hinrichs biscotti cranberry bread macedonia di frutta gone before eight proof new book express time presses

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Wind Clock

Dino in the woods branches waving wind wind clock while can whisper invitation yes, yes, well give me a hollar bad boy

Friday, December 02, 2005

Custom Groove

sound cues costumes planning press publication printing build cast design set go busy theatre-sit love other what am I missing nothing practiced manager custom groove as if secure safe innocent ready live die fulfilled

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Big Event

website coaching meeting minds can do answers questions tell grad student Living Theatre do I know was "Paradise Now" a failed experiment not writhing together is Antigone symbol freedom what kind anarchists help change good history not here big event its raining