Saturday, May 31, 2008

Right Now

"I hope you enjoy this crazy little novel" publication date tomorrow thanks Vere more to come real information follows acting aspect unknown 1982 a younger generation follows remember anything certainly an opening night on crutches ancient history the sixties even forties ended eighties nineties got away feels nothing follows all necessity continues make it right now history is depressing bad news follows every good boy home

Friday, May 30, 2008

Start Again

come on then connect this is all I can offer pleasant conversation custom crafted for you spontaneous outside routine preoccupations unacknowledged bliss to be alive right now yearn reach for more than human limitation this dark age requires young will start again

Thursday, May 29, 2008

On the Fly

everybody comes from somewhere old timers less recent only farm families stay nothing else endures son of Latvian oil baron beats Blake Paris day long over match less momentous if you know who wins mall restaurant rejected Grand Vines happening on the fly suits us small table portions easily intimate

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Surf Cowboys

tree planting satisfaction guaranteed not necessarily lasting deer butchered the last ones Faustino put them in too deep leaf curl hideous despite unpleasant spraying these perfect springing upward promising flowers fruit foliage and shade middle foreground losing big walnut a serious catastrophe whole computer architecture changing office metaphor old world ready or not like vines climbing chimney sweep away past digital archives lost media still talking about literature here goes western surf cowboys could care less future past interest if true will recognize untenable ignorant confusing

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Warm Snow

horse noises in the dark barn something lurking in my studio fluff drifting warm snow Swedish Russians know snow too well depression viral change music fast crabapples tree surgeons insulation man pool unroofed mark seasonal cadenza redemptive irises only beginning middle way too beautiful sound imitating sound

Monday, May 26, 2008

Right On

stimulating conversation beats tai chi can't I have both all yes yes I am the affirmer something terrible is going to happen here we need to be very very careful how are we entitled to be immune are not clear about Alzheimer's all we can everything right illusions fall how could we told you so but you went right on

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Inner Light

show me your (yoga) I'll show you mine learned from Jean-Claude's teacher Ravi Singh Westbeth 1989 stretches think Sat Nam no words only breathing inner light share a movie violin melody read in bed fall asleep dream of you expanding view point one complaint deserves no rebuke accepting change initiate brighter night

Stand Still

how long can a deer stand still how long can I some things moving others paused four thin legs steadier than my two ears follow unseen action words accumulate eventual tail twitch lick lips wander off

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Good Thing

pitter-patter good thing I closed car windows Tom came out and walked on the windowsill carefully straddling the glass independence illusory distinction to be for versus live for the other covenant homily puzzle wedding not our style no one talk to wish them well

Let Be

the face of God is my own face turned inside out one's own face seen from the inside real vision meditating dream of neediness released let be fears assuaged

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Whole Man

poor Ted Kennedy richly alive essential senator invaluable solid voice of reason felled unfairly illness isn't fair everybody vulnerable it's miraculous we exist at all such complex systems intricate balance details proliferate infinite beyond design analysis entertaining useful wrong tool understand appreciate great whole man

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Mood Swings

weather matters too much here windy chilly or too hot rainy gray or blazing sun grass immediately shaggy flowers falling over grew too fast mood swings who really cares largely spared in city dash room room stroll when it's nice

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Green World

jump time read Times and I'm back in the green world glad home O.K. to be sad parting regret one joke otherwise perfect happy every sec a family illusion even Buddha suffering

Monday, May 19, 2008

Best Fun

real as ever Indies roll over look at me alarms my ego performing thrill professes praise deserved remember one a year good will given whether worded wedded bonhomie ambivalence as ever wields explicit envy regrets bravely breasted appropriate or not full moon parking structure to the last experienced my choice real as dream transcribed we happy few don't stop appreciate or not best fun rehearsing mysterious aim I won for lights thank you what it takes belief beyond reviews applause safely riding air

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Full Hearts

so very pleasant to be together family sister son laughing bloopers weeping Masterpiece Theatre took me away brought me back I wish it would never end tomorrow we go on other connecting full hearts at ease beyond thanks acceptance

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Come Together

question return anniversary calls it's what sixteen worth trip bone break damage mending meanwhile Santa Barbara family pleasures farmers' market running lines Summerland beach ideal afternoon meaning theatre beyond therapy art way of life Xerxes alive at the table Lit Moon's "Wedding" music sparkle dances beautiful spirit intention come together worship creation act as if true

Fresh Energy

train roaring cawing ugly birds "Omnium Gatherum" an artifact of overkill family scattered far from natural allies most careers equally diffuse can be thinking pattern recognition marriage redefined good news we need staples removed healing herbs added to pain relief practicality questions warm waning interest how much matters where we are fresh energy arises with the sun two days running hot ripening local crops elusive last desires

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Usual Sights

extreme familiarity this turn shop shortcut crosstown timing accelerate brake lights jacarandas usual sights comfort attract would I live here if I could yes I might have a simple little house on Quinientos or some such street warm all year go nowhere let them come to me too much better than too little obligation long met to see appreciate it all missing Mark Morris by one day unbearable regret missed years identity staked out gone sometimes here apologies accepting changing record admirable wonderful healing takes me home

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Air Speed

John Cage said that fear in life is the fear of change. If I may add to that: nothing can avoid changing. It's the only thing you can count on. Because life doesn't have any other possibility, everyone can be measured by his adaptability to change. (Robert Rauschenberg) alone in the sky rushing through air speed holding us all up closed into separate solitudes changing places then there self left behind chemistry disrupted to appreciate warm soft atmosphere convenient services hurtling sister civilization Knowing more only encourages your limitations. (R.R.)

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Moon Mad

packed ready easy practice pays and if I don't have the ideal shirt nobody knows my dubious style whatever impression I make not Tyrone Power my own father in his time haunts my anticipation count forward liftoff merely one transition goal receding phases moon mad good as any answer

Monday, May 12, 2008

Few Bucks

"We know these guys in Google and the eBay guys, and they are not any happier than anyone else. A lot of money is a burden." (Craig Newmark) which world is real media jabber serious people talk the line aware their own performances careers clever lucky few can choose may truly dubious need multimillions to merely live once one of them it takes imagination to remember anything else ordinary everyday few bucks unpredictable future less worthy important statistic

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Fear of Phoning

to go or not to go sooner whether to change my reservation whatever the extra cost rent a car if needed ouch let's talk the fares are rising reality developing play personality confuses judgment my own inertia communication breakdown fear of phoning late evades responsibility O. K. do it happy help when I can

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Move On

wrong glasses where is my book some discrimination not all films worth watching you'd think people must be stupid existing itself worthwhile I have to question move on there is but oh poignant failure equally well intended symbols goodness talent in mud mind blur comes over sentimental allowance you have be tough

Friday, May 09, 2008

Still Alive

why is the new mall so badly designed incoherent approach roads senseless orientation of entrances stupid forms replicating causing willing customers to wander in confusion wasting time complaining doesn't help the present endeavor misdirected styling savvy displaces common sensible process key words forget it I would do better if I were a civil engineer (Dad's idea) what actually fate accident interact inevitable fact once happens there you are not me not late Vonnegut stand aside watch yourself go by wave marvel that you're still alive

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Ti 22

titanium sneaking in my titanium watch titanium laptop Mac I gave to Julian titanium Guggenheim Bilbao titanium rod in Alfred's femur light strong corrosion resistant non-ferromagnetic creepless titanium is a marvelously useful element yes Ti 22 tricky costly to extract modern technology medicine skill fix break fast spare loved one pain consider titanium know we're lucky to live now

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

Broken Leg

woken by a broken leg long distance sympathy all day phone following repair apparent success thanks Cottage Hospital nothing else compares accident sudden change normal reality reappears slowly shock diminishes patience its own reward undefended children's pains helpless to spare watch from afar hoping positive outcome sorely implicate never released

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Searing Drama

sentencing your own son to death now that's a searing drama I don't have to say it any old words will do to do what I need to do now I know another set of tasks another kit of determination patience equanimity apply as needed to affected part

Monday, May 05, 2008

No Match

died what a word precious Hanon Reznikov unrecognized devoted to Judith his own singular vision no more in a moment snapped perspective shifts to historical record of realizations manifest deeper more intricate devices steady perseverance triumphed fabulous evanescence beats us all in the end you have to do it again again or nothing memory no match flaming theatrical now

Sunday, May 04, 2008

God of Frogs

What accounts for luck? The complexity of systems. My predicament is only a dream and I know it. How did I learn to be like this? Was it in the boat? I was the god of frogs, one of many. Anything might eat me but probably wouldn't: I am lucky. I'd rather think it isn't luck (that is rewarded) but accomplishment. How did Bach? Muster exacting patience. Where can we meet? How can we be together that way again?

Saturday, May 03, 2008

Even Less

self-reflective intelligence diminished patient attention is the hardest holding your arms up for three hours injured boy crying tender trust cold water bandaid we are twins so I can be happy with even less

Friday, May 02, 2008

Bad Habits

full-length day goes on a long time writing done before breakfast if it matters blew it long ago sacrifice the morning wheelbarrow weeds compost pile overflowing I need discipline bad habits not enough

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Beyond Style

I am writer do I say what I think yes but the medium is message yes but not actually about anything thinking is the thought itself irony not rhetoric rather way of seeing self-protection for the serious the least of it our predicament beyond style seriously grown up road words writ at phone booth bright island in deep darkness mind response to Keith Gessen