Tuesday, July 31, 2007

High Wire

will it confuse the audience I am playing with the audience no irony north of San Francisco it doesn't make sense anyway what does we are balanced relative order vs utter chaos as if on high wire tiptoeing earth whirling beneath feet

Monday, July 30, 2007

On It

costume joy Mary Gibson made the call fearing rejection do without not rejected after all ain't life funny just mosey along think right do right on it book progress too open mike lined up in my absence leave it clean finite tasks happy results our own garlic zucchini leftover chili almost finished with the Second World War last peaceful summer appreciated

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Ground Swells

once a coherent metaphor or symbol begins to take shape the surrealist impulses take over and nonsense ensues is this my ideal yes the style most tickling meanwhile lost in serious as if we have no control our lives among millions one or two geologic time winks and nothing is changed sentimental self-interest rise above practical cats unhappy winter grimly get through barn chores erections words arise attenuated blood brothers never speak parallel solitaries rely momentum carry water ground swells warm nonlethal attractive fabrication here and at a distance patience perseverance medicated equanimity despised recourse as if ends mean anything regular pleasures sufficient exercise occasional trips then nothing else ever again recover appetite material follow-through escape to warmth civilization consciousness of history and all it suggests artesian memories contest present empty poised enrapturing blackbirds belie abstraction red or yellow winged particular landscapes as if home truly becomes the way we are spoken each other's anchor foundation any do fullness do patterns like aerial acrobatics and poetry in French

Clean House

how to have fun dream wake up stretch breathe eat read play music work walk swim drive do things with other people explore feelings ideas make things happen help them help the general situation embrace reality specifically clean house

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Body Parts

air twittering ears on hiss whistle feedback fan perpetual rushing flaps projecting sizzle press move changes breath at nostrils fine distinctions quail too many body parts live as if their own truth united in my being

Friday, July 27, 2007

Born Free

Re-Genesis born free necessary name more than oneself if not non-profit executive committee born naturally breathe phone make lists think plan peace people what do everybody now knows terrible unforgivable blunder older couple comfortable bed house life full days hearts darling offspring

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Good Shake

my auto-dérive took me unexpectedly into mountains I don't know where I am you're in Springwater where is that hungry I ate Colson Café grilled cheese good shake Paul can't do costumes can I do without I made a schedule wardrobe person key this where I fail teamless harrowing first rehearsal inspired script in dream children emphatic forgotten dimension gradually accepted I blossom cook play

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Spare Me

tiny flicker of letting go crystal timer finally aligned merge universal energies atomic interstellar vegetal distinct transition driving to music Eno ambient suits my mood if that's what it is damped swings spare me anxiety component rather slip away immaterial focus later on classics then things to do catch up engage mindful space created others touched something from nothing arises alive despite no one to talk to but you

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Must Learn

my failings include collaboration I mostly fly solo seemingly impatient need be too what to attract co-leaders to my projects tell me what to do they say ha someone take initiative short on practice sharing vision details being president must learn Sidney put up tree swing imagined years girls laughing sunlight grandma pushes happily grilling al fresco classic summer

Monday, July 23, 2007

Lemon Chiffon

they like me playing the piano how pleasing I am not indifferent to the effect I have presenting my heart this my thrust obsession pleasure young girls playing Legos big blue ball fierce interaction mellow elders cooking I help try build peace dove play music wash up lemon chiffon

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Just Okay

Kelley stood circle had us all give her advice consejo for her year in Mexico loving community long friends I new join dance Santana work day finish mowing set stones more sand swim nothing else kids Jet Bluing in tonight I miss airport run no room car home movie fine I am here and people come and go and so do I money flowing balance just okay now who can tell what multiplying details mean or when

Saturday, July 21, 2007

See Believe

that I am obsolete embrace real still enjoyed blast of New York energy ambition youthful virile self-interested roomful myself included thanks Mark so it is I used to want but now I don't glad to come home never liked full-time anything see believe truth now my private chamber stage undiscovered Strindberg

Friday, July 20, 2007

All Over

messages from all over I love the internet I can stay home and not be isolated not too cell phone in my pocket interrupts Schumann not just who it is but what they say what it wakes in me shattered community regroups new time becoming nothing lost connections proliferate ever young replacing fallen friends in other countries fresh ringtone generation

Even Good

Living Theatre at Ground Zero courageous friends continue to speak out heroic fools Keegan's World War II evil aims incoherent wastage misery spreading even good harm tender gums expiring sun overlarge sheet bad choices reflexive nothing can recover and yet we live forward smallish pleasures consolation unfolding arise regroup go on

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Soap Spray

get past these instrumental preoccupations back to pure language exploit noun-adjective- verb ambiguity gorgeous mosaic English love games relax let seriousness go moment play birds in ceiling O.K. but not bugs nasturtiums dahlias attack soap spray Rose Defense hope eat flowers peppery garden weeded mulched enjoyed rain thank who participate that again

Monday, July 16, 2007

Solid Sand

intense sushi bonds father son celebrates successful fishing trip includes dip oyster tasting ocean rich people's condos fancy French houses clutter shore waves keep rolling waters kelp small stones underfoot solid sand easy return

Magic Wrinkles

oh don't put that confusion in my mind I can handle it but why persist in driving me crazy heat cool ocean breeze downtown encounters magic wrinkles instant changes number game later we'll meet we'll be together eating drink champagne or whisky toss aside remembered slights acknowledge footprints wince another dollar saved contract executed cast complete

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Delayed Response

garden reflects reframing improved meetings phoning craigslist crazies messages delayed response do what it takes I do neighbors house repose Beethoven Sibelius fives Tate Lobero Music Academy orchestra pure thrill now never mind yesterday's anyone else's better more popular art fact is

Amid Art

multitudes marking Mercy's ninetieth converse amid art who stops to look assumes our spontaneous existence effortless flight converging sweetly Alfred understands the fishing metaphor is apt impossible without the fish

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Dim Lights

president of poetry dishonored honorific inevitable innocents inarticulate hopeful my fantasy theatre real Santa Barbara give me actors a room I'll give you a play dim lights glimmer can battered eyes adjust a quiet music stubbornly continues act publicly counter frightened isolation task accomplished will have to satisfy

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Thin Shade

a certain expectant and spontaneous response to existence Léaud learning how to do things one at a time no expecting then whatever it is unfolds exactly as expected the retreat philosophical semesters too long thin shade eager friends

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Too Hot

casting is the hardest part imagining anyone will give me weeks that I can make it interesting enough rewarding fun enough art enough what kind of person am I too hot a day for anything still I make a few calls leave messages tomorrow morning cool studio usable I'll work on the script attention helps what is appreciate once I have actors unearth meaning life real work begin

On the Air

a finger touch changes executed Chinese minister to Corelli car follows road through populous night after wild Walt Curtis KBOO hour high on booze poets calling in every five minutes look at me he said on the air I'm a homosexual my age long gray grizzled only his small soft handshake tells me anything I know he performs himself good show

Monday, July 09, 2007

Impossibly Trivial

chug city back three times two days Shannon visit yesterday poetry show tonight worked afternoon so enjoy free days scheme dream write few words refer anything materializes consequences slowly deliquesce public utterance joins conscious beings few among many respond anything else impossibly trivial

Saturday, July 07, 2007

Playing Keeps

thinking doing in between empty mind ready acts in motion awaiting responses e-mails messages maturing intentions go fan time stark new revolutionary letters how it is di Prima sees old friends still slim shadow Wimbledon playing keeps

Friday, July 06, 2007

Road Noise

Hertzberg tells on Cheney harm done good people all over what do they do think mean how do they live raise energy why on earth so many messes long working soon wrecked Quinault biggest spruce fir can't learn which which rain forest maple trail new trees grow fallen trunks stumps moss all spun positive Hurricane Ridge spectacular landscape ferry pleasant Victoria Canada Royal B.C. Museum fascinating history Butchart Gardens better imagined "our" hotel café Nanaimo bastion ferry wind fierce mountains development hell survive traffic transit beautiful fertile Fraser valley farms funnel rugged peaks cozy Ts'qó:ls crazy spelling salmon cedar fine life gone forgiven Japanese Canadians crossing border slow back empty roads small-town parody lunch Seattle fountain play music voices too sober Indian dinner Zeke terrific sculpture park Rem Koolhaas architecture library program way complex not looks but how it works makes feel art museum Taste enough eat greens head out too fast hot hours road noise ready home