City Pleasure

moving money box office nothing out alive Guggenheim David Smith better quantity Kandinsky favorite invent precise no limit our mothers knew Thannhauser I visited house Cezanne Picasso Braque next room great action enormous hamburgers rain wind bus subway theatre tix so last day goes love art city pleasure

Favorite Date

all good Gary Carol Lora-Faye Marcia Robert watch enjoy energy precision spontaneous live Indian talk Brooklyn "Gilead" dream twitch snore notes play visit Jonathan Annie house fine art missed Gwen better Donald's goodbye Hannah Central Park favorite date Pò noisy ghosts 30 years Anne's light program Times Square dark sweet relief

Weary Bones

feet up feels good quiet past multitude time write letter John read Times think home planned events occur what then something arises weary bones recover enough go on

Angel Devil

too much day one three subways hour family brunch chez Bicky same cortege plus Eric black suit Lora-Faye delicious cordial charming chatter 21st floor "unreal" view Virginia coughing fits departing westbound train Carol Lora-Faye "Tutti-Frutti" Tim Sharp party Périgord two downtown subway taxi La Mama gathering Johnny Dodd I led read bio projected photos moderated many talked remembering moved a lighting genius beauty sweetheart angel devil his son Fleming Steve Ben Israel recalling trips Judith Hanon Crystal Tom O'Horgan Jon Andreadakis Anne Militello eloquent gave new respect Bob Heide anecdotes all filmed recorded Carolyn Peter Craig roomful feeling love Michael Warren Powell tale of Indian reservations driving rolling wonderful time Kevin K says collages saleable may go India Fleming cast Johnny's ashes into Ganges document goodbye out after sweet lively Ruby Lynn sure Kathryn drunk three walk theatre good house show fine I shot video bored see through every move familiar not convinced Hannah happy Kathryn admired six more can I watch lug computer down First Avenue Houston seething youth bars Babylon home hate F train Brooklyn stairs

Family Reunion

last night velvet joy after Wednesday drear depress drag tonight disaster family reunion Carol Virginia Santa Fe Lewis Alice Hudson Valley Bicky Shannon California Hannah Patience old ones lunch Minetta Tavern wine octopus personalities every fifteen years came to see my play Carol I to Brooklyn Lora-Faye coming 43rd Street left to young trudge nap dinner Sal Anthony both generations Alfred ready slow dessert coffee check came back no Kathryn came in 8:10 crazed puffy weeping went on no makeup rattled lost others rallied play sagged staggered Backstage this the show

Wacko Drivel

did you see the snow line is your throat sore are you sick depressed discouraged Patti happy revives morale horse leapt onstage fear improve light illuminate character form disregard irrelevant wacko drivel who can be sad mad bad anyone easily read music get drunk exchange vows heal kiss nap recover die

Free Inside

look for money where you lost it great wrecker advises no fatherly advice but caution don't follow I can better show mellow dynamic buy property build capital money flows divert some future balance free inside every same variation living love savor share rejoice

Clean Sheets

Rapp "Red Light Winter" knocked out fierce good lovingly detailed truthful indelible actors onstage sex emotionally devastating dark funny shocking cruelty sadness left shaken city people tattooed tough take care subway self displayed no apology look is it art presentation accepted situationist outlook Bicky pizza bus Alfred Chelsea galleries put me under house dusted bright clean sheets

Never Alone

feel the wheel of time slowly turning Remy stroke all fall one Julian called woke me up now I am awake 11:28 I like waking voices imagined brahma- viharas with me never alone forever

Miss America

communications major Miss America what can communicate mean manipulate exploit entangle sincere social good personal mechanical blind smile cynical irony mind sculpture equanimity sympathetic joy deep harmony deep rhythm take me away bring me safe satisfied home

Bearing Witness

It's a pity I can't get into the Times. Every show I go to that has had a story in the Times is selling out, but nobody is coming to my play, which remains invisible. Even The Voice declined to review or hype it. The Times is really the only game. People who see the play like it, and at this point, two weeks into the run, the performance is getting sweet. So I am happy with it. Alfred has created a wonderful character and we are having a very good time together in the city. I marvel at the actors, who give their all for whoever is there. So do I. Carol says I am bearing witness. I sort of vaguely know what she means but that is not what I want to be doing particularly: a byproduct, at best. Theatre without audience is like books without readers. I do that too. And blog. I see the work as having a life and being of its own, free-standing, independent. Beauty does not need to be admired. But admiring it is a great pleasure.

Beautiful Music

The work of age is to keep refining my interpretation of reality, most emblematically my own, which is essentially process, of which expressing its own nature is a critical part: its meaning. Alfred singing in the shower so what if the play fails we are having a good time the world is full of beautiful music

Unsalted Butter

years of unsalted butter what missing audience of four five for second act gallant actors giving all for nothing matters bourgeois theatre lovers want slick comfortable ushers fair enough glad pay sixty nobody fifteen free so flop am I expressing my feelings now gorgeous outings Dia Beacon today warm bright enormous large staff fascinating art Serra Torqued Elipses Chamberlain junkyard beauty noble strings implying planes step through surprise Warhol Agnes Martin stripes disgusting Bourgeois shining Flavin walk train shuttle ready to go home

Fun Dish

Florent putting up new maps lunch Mélisande children's books travel children dear sameness impossible regret dinner Vasseux drag actor fun dish fill in absences show low Harry snores Jean-Claude Bill amused Sidneys Lisa Patsy warm give support appreciate LaMonte Dream House loud complex drone easy carpet comfort red blue shadows slowly moving Bob Fass talk show WBAI friendly pitch "Trouble" La Mama read Pinter Nobel speech aloud fierce glad 3:30 taxi home satisfied

Too Young

long tooth ha reviewer too young John Vaccaro knows more Italian theatrical history architectural I beg your pard-on simultaneously interview Johnny cell-phone home Whitney what art Sheeler nameless play vapid fearsome modern times nervous dancing color blobs mix more good Pollock working style wind rain window floor outside clock running theatre lovers come ready sit stay attend respond Larry pro Myerson-Warhol another show impressed Dino never shared taste gladly continue who we always are

No Cards

wordless tonespeaks bed miles week more lone dadman bask Koutoukas warm generous true gentleman genius laugh mate speak of Johnny scan images Patti for La Mama slideshow call Carolyn Vaccaro Alfred dinner another sold-out play they would come to mine if they knew about it no cards dumb

Easy Words

busy then suddenly not do we have to do something "Match Point" tremendous from the front row gripped friend Michael stroke mess same fine gentle smiling soul easy words untroubled heart nice person little life

More Jokes

I feel like everybody's doing this; the human condition is not really understood on the surface; the waking, walking person and the sleeping person are completely different. That's why we need sleep; that's how the soul develops, in sleep. (Neil Young) play wakes real lives Dickie lives not just performance what spirit walks a promised land dreaming a music space aglow who are you phantom provokes ask facts what we make solidarity imagination devotion time what work brave chill hot passion unfold colors stately funny fond like Lucille Ball not Joan Crawford smiles at mirrors poses radiant unconscionable lighter faster say fewer four-letter words more jokes

Next Year

to rally the forces of light mainstream envy useless fun show 2nd stage slick no difference everything nothing supports actors poor by default my play vanish barely heard next year 1st class production

Almost Naked

A writer's life is a highly vulnerable, almost naked activity. We don't have to weep about that. The writer makes his choice and is stuck with it. But it is true to say that you are open to all the winds, some of them icy indeed. (Pinter) Six in the house tonight: a friendly older woman in the front row, acting herself, who loved the play and acting; two pierced young people who said when asked that they enjoyed it; a shaky old man with a cane who left at intermission; another old man with fresh wounds on his face; and a black man who came back late for the second half, snuck around behind the risers, and climbed silently into his seat in the back row. The performance was excellent. Gary Maurie Bob called I called Peter can't walk Kevin sent photos praise both love giving being loved

Opening Night

breakfast back bed sleep dream bright warm clean on budget write big check theatre yellow shirt red sweater Grand Central shoeshine zip champagne "Automatic Vaudeville" books come May Day first store sell cleanup ready flowers dressing room sushi Alfred salmon extra good star-studded audience Judith Hanon Serena Tensie Melisande David Joanie Doric Michael Eduardo Marie-Claire Roger Paul Bob John Jean-Claude (Vasseux) Kevin friendly shot Peculiar three loud bar liked my actors play glitches unnoted praise Alfred writing work

Other Minds

but as they died she must die too Birgit Nilsson anyone Isolde you light man makes all wait I fume then it looks like shit what to do Schumann sings Pinter thinks looks allows other minds exist innocent people always suffer

Clumsy Process

lightly controlled chaos facing tough thrill redemption lighting set nod Hot Peaches formerly excluded some remain oblivious Dow broke 11,000 spring balmy fell back morning rococo sound corrections toast actors ready lines costumes audience feet my computer moment shopping taking out laundry invaded thoughts disdained clumsy process accept who what present

Too Late

always moment too late other choices if only committed positive good all doubtful opportunity arising clouded judgment hoping favor hoping best rearrange fix up dressing room more light check today come tomorrow one run lines stage manager costume hour dopey error not to have an understudy father son wholehearted success Dan xenophile Brazil delay visa downtown dinner rustic Greek too too no goat bus photos happy that was the point

Kill Death

line learning crisis Crystal call her in exhausted falling apart unprofessional fear dread frustration waiting to rehearse Dan Marya Bill watch before Brazil Los Angeles demons kill death Dino laughs thank God grace redemption

Poor Edie

Warhol wig bought Abracadabra clerk hated him poor Edie home dinner Alfred buy sound effects ballet beauty second row white ballerinas glowing blue red leap turn twine music organic precision another day rehearsing doing business costumes first time timing scenes 20 30 15 30 minutes long enough with 15 minute intermission 110 perfect laugh with Patti Alfred beat him pingpong barely Ethiopian restaurant packed waited food so good great pleasure love each other dont we have fun

Knee Pillow

ostensibly mellow easy fact is relentless focused full myself scared time eaten set unready lines unlearned closed ungiving motions naked unexposed O.K. this too will pass yearn warmer other present understand selves shed stress head press defended fine gift of art bought dear love formally acknowledged bright knee pillow comfort all company

Not Art

advice on getting my book published a wretched walk in driving sleet hear why Hot Peaches stopped happening professional I know what that means stairsteps lighting up then receding footwork good news not art French food fall asleep between fading words each one ring unique handwoven rug

Red Dress

why am I so cheerful ridiculous world pitiful stacked up city lives stride limpingly along cold rehearsal walkout then sharper attention red dress sequins bugle beads rain walk home despite virus despite dead batteries live bombs desperate need unrequited happiness

Duck Salad

Hannah missed her plane running lines with Alfred Juliet Denver re Uncle Al Nancy booking memorial Oren party overlook park Betsy scapegoat problem philosopher shows films drives L.A. young single Thai food cheap good duck salad just enough