Perfect Fig

a day this beautiful is a weather event just as much as rain and wind pleasure overbalances pain if you measure time I imitate a person enjoying a perfect fig who is convinced his own memory fits agreed facts adjustments quite as good do you need inspiration no and I forget what I use instead jump out the window

Only If

unrevealed it didn't happen except to the actual person forgotten movies were not seen except then books not read but the hours passed pleasingly engaged in vast imaginary possibilities if I say this then that only if someone tells records can I mean what it was I began

Bad Example

too many of everything to describe any one bad example why make more O.K. already expressed never quite like this considering death O.K time to go strong happy stuff a concern how inconvenient survivors busy far away nothing after O.K. books memories plangent dreams internet presence love lasting longest make a present future no future past

Winter Nights

what if not children living elsewhere unfortunately culture of scattering but actively carrying on what if not wondering vaguely question suffering doubt vaguely dissatisfied not doing enough quite right children existing is what might relieve console is that what Liszt thought music for winter nights

Opening Night

my real body is young smooth lithe fresh as fifteen strong as thirty-five white hair thick age draped over it ill-fitting irrelevant pay it no heed my real self is outside time capable of anything fearless just beginning to understand this is opening night irresistibly attractive art enflamed look through immediate repetition wear damage faulty steps my real thought is this flowing momentary stillness striking clock my father's I am not he as you are not me we meet at ten to tell our woe we wed again as one the other brief quick kiss hot tip be in this all together

Necessary Explanation

head above water body below large whitish thrashing everything on earth spinning along gravity necessary explanation suspended illusory which way backward afloat in time sleepswimming in tandem harmonious mergers welcome challenging tasks imagine treasure waiting flexible connection redefines perfected union some come easily jaunty tunes readily expository as if short words better express uncomplicated stories unimaginable restraint complements warmer depths

Dream Possible

terminal frustration finally I know how I'm too old start anew desired collaborators busy stamina limited mostly time stands still nothing changes pleasures are repeatable patterns persist same old clothes wear out slowly present reprises yesterday tears avail not reenact what didn't work the other times choose good habits be comforted hope youth creative energy freed start now remake dream possible

Lap Work

when will I begin overcoming all my galling limitations mystery intention locking me inside self belief barely relevant God dog (barks all night) oh books I could write wit wisdom ready eat be rich and famous last no what I mean is sit at my desk or lap work here month on month registrar of being analyst meaning built from words

Three Meals

illusion of nothing what is something actual this and that post office recycling varnish table scrub legs pick up walnuts dream mow Mozart three meals friendly reading journalism Drabble write letter Julian sons are real

Too Many

too many words meaning lost what is work promise wake up come back O. K. I'm awake what too many ideas about what I like generalized good take in crimson foliage glorious too bright I squint don't want to know how bad it personal mortality enough happiness too many each unique rehearsal machine like appreciate value added every day