A Table

president of poetry I offer Kenneth Koch blank looks why can't I talk about things people to call business coming events it's not as if everything settled mind emptied editing Ignacio I recompose his childish memory flashes vanish around corners sand away my children's dings family dinners this historical artifact a table

Rushing Tires

arcs of light wet sidewalk shining rushing tires on nearby motorway machine always running bedroom filtering air stretch leg's ligament crossing ear crickets tug memory future nostalgia encroaching ever miss present sensations changing

Our Best

The process, reality translated into bits of pure form, courts incoherence but sustains meaning. (Kimmelman on Stein) linen letters further virtues wish the truth orbital or belt soft recovery sudden click ignites my heat again restored who new strategy exhausted reforms implies positive spin as if carefully placing every word materializes something someone wants make it they will buy for plays see website pictures Magie's manifesto every one of us doing our best Be superior by cultivating your intellect and taste. (E. Waugh to his son Bron)

Too Hard

what if I worked on it all day instead of snatching fragments from oblivion made something of myself I do then what it only why then keep writing as though Waugh family publisher never shortage readers too hard work outside put up shit shed gutter who is it for what motivates compulsion identity spiritual obligation fulfilled still hungry obscure desire arising even now which current carried me here this way how productive be if not so scattered free choose lawful mosaic ordered mind

At Peace

the best part this being awake at peace lucky me loving loved leave it at that if I only could thinking reality not the same historically personal promise pain and worse undeserved yet the night is warm inside again as if this is expected

After God

seems if nothing start somewhere before God what after God we are not the first only begin where are words that mean essence existing none fatherless or unmothered conditional past precedes myself admit you know unforget choice composing deaf melody arising sun over clouds swim upstream effort required creates results

Wising up

difficult music special day worth driving to be among sophisticated listeners who trouble to appear Herbert Muschamp missed already none to write like that everything that matters to me is personal formerly prime now divisible two three four six eight nine twelve twenty-four and thirty-six I'm ready for autumn descending strongly play piano better more even wising up no alternative

Only Me

birthday doing list missed flu shot awaiting gasman helpless whip up nice lunch Ignacio book talk story life all outsiders find our way back formed so family carried forward individuality a myth only what we do distinguishes still same person Pew-Smithily blunders tender shy only me now sync sister siblings half regeneration barren yet time sons potential forward in present theatre enough this one even old

Serpent Kiss

dental reprieve relief paralyzed terror subdued rain sun swim giving in being here whatever it means enjoy plug away editing novels coming in Schumann Berlioz Wagner updating website train attention outward reflection inward learn doing being new age different phase reversals resistible urgency chosen balance leaves room quietly persevere until serpent kiss kicks back

Vegetable Truth

empowered being beyond oneself details absorbed shared vegetable truth berries painted music what is the lesson he said harmlessly invited can we open confidential tapes degraded unnoticed wack moments I will never renounce always thinking some emptiness redress of allergies lost lovers daring art procedure employed as if no one else can ever exist