Wrong Word

bad boy not to work this holiday weekend Sunday too give myself a break wrote letter to the Times make myself foolish wrong word pacifist meant nonviolent can be fixed embarrassing to speak out ah well go for it New York tennis rain of pears August come again

Report Back

is this the day probably or not the right words what I wanted to say slips away between breaths about mother father place time space report back no market explains the house ghost footsteps click another month waiting document growing doubt or confidence reveals the opening beat write again speak anyone shoes or not answer cooking with gas in the black thank you pudding leg strength core results in victory long deserved

Hidden Structures

cucumber and rose petals infuse my sight thought a gathering purposed recovered blowing dust glittering night never silent thousands expressing hidden structures poets leave word buildings offer second choices determine inscrutable outcomes adjectives verb willing subjects implore harmonic shuffle bore willing exchange

What I Want

kissing Allen Ginsberg symbolizes hope for change poo-poos and irony set aside commentary dispensed with don't tell us what to think everything sayable used up individual dramas framed history rolls bodies sensitive to smells I know what I want another sunny day granola fruit fresh occasions for expression fairness peace dividends healthily enjoyed with friends good music books bold opening

Pitiful Story

unexpected linkages strangely gratifying East Berlin in the 70s Katte's pitiful story Oscar Wilde and Neal Flanagan heat pump estimate open windows bored watching tennis Harry Reid on energy Hillary's classy move another tai chi teacher skips class feels O.K.

Each Pause

slow changes reinforce steady habits which spoon where the phone alarm green points ready house for winter Schubert yields more close attention exactly what is happening now goes forth welcoming ears in consonance who when where fall slowly in place recall Zseliz spring 1824 who likes each pause between riotous wakes instead of writing wanders mildly desirous the sun doesn't "rise" it offers another subtle instrument

More Naps

tai chi runs down now what long night calculated effects in the public sphere statistical people acting on purpose to win I hope schooling pays off for mine too fragile membranes slowly healing joints more naps more dreams linger late enough to sleep till five it asking pays or not fights evil with happiness

White Jeans

two alone again preferred order our own balance patterns after afternoon concert neighbor kids on bikes welcome soft rain cold chicken salad conversation wanders easily inconclusive variety of types man's fate think anything animal caring simpler I will pick things up whatever it takes do right choose positive adjustment correct myself try tight white jeans they fit again

Other Keys

remarkably it must be the same Richard Stoltzman still tripping up and down his clarinet's remarkable range my static destroys it forced into other room one tiny fly too annoying bumblebees thick in the raspberries I reach among them pick ripe no sting this time early morning they're just getting started was I here did I do anything seized by vagueness comfortable sensations familiar wardrobe dusting recycling all that phoning other keys absent loves

Final Grapes

diligent indulged the Canby ferry Lake Oswego after New Seasons berry lunch hit ten thrift shops seeking white suit for Shannon's elegant retro wedding unexpected encounter pinballing one another then back to Goodwill for Halston David Byrne ice cream "Man Wire" peanut noodles home final grapes

Time Echo

mother and father long gone who made me who I was then not to forget who had been before during after my arise dare drop present self remember who the doing which time echo resonates to what I want now the question posed moue mot they stand poised in my await

My Ironing

ego snap oops not too bad abrupt departure couldn't get into the conversation went right on without me Olympic runners dropped batons got my ironing done not just anyone a few days texture changed other stuff to do while nothing can be done reading Nádas aloud crazy as I thought but real childhood infinite ruination

Swift Procedure

escort to surgery benefits too expert nurses prepare patient hospital society comes awake clamming mentioned coffee multiplying personnel adjust order execute swift procedure afterwards mellowness lingers time together sweet pink blue vision improved reading aloud

This Existence

already August gosh some weeks already before you know it I'll be gone like smoke mere molecules wafting around the world words are more real if lastingness counts servers can't forever archive mounting I'm published but for how long better make hard copy disseminated will survive one copy immortality evidence this existence

Changing Light

scary that concrete is the most concrete cracks can only widen a string quartet most perfect combination tenuous at best harmonies pass in their nature always leading somewhere follow or not I can't help it we are inherently susceptible country life requires the city virtual money underpins the natural vitality what would we do without civilization so fragile our brilliance as if isolate and yet the web the spiders windows draped with weeds of abandoned hope it makes me laugh ironic pleasure is real days arise dreams incorporated cast a changing light even as I grow

Honest Weight

no mistake I did it on purpose so what do you think of that is opportunity for opinion all we get is play of personalities all smile put on faces as if roles defined what might be said or thought harmonic affinities is that enough no deeper honest weight see what I really think

Live Close

house holds heat who cares fan helps rise price who see what lowers values imagine my lighting unaffordable so it goes less travel live close all better "Bug" too painful anyway dim slits revealed blood again what can we do still another possible jump deciding this is better health

Come Again

sick in the night uneasy feeling slowly finally adjourn bed to bathroom vomit hideously lie floor miserably wonder what next that's it still can't eat much lay around all day hot limp feeling ill presidential poetry duties dispatched regret still too unwell for Nico Muhly concert when will he ever come again

Nobody Hungry

we don't cry anymore but it's just as painful parting redeemed by future but present long 100-degree heat "like India" makes it worse my air-conditioned car almost ran out of gas disoriented I collapsed at dinnertime dream- weirded woke ragged weak nobody hungry

Special Knowledge

intense presence functioning systems people serve inspired food place racing toward each other no going together into hot waters naked helps each other natural affinity well express return to sanctuary inner path whichever way you go I go with you over bridges under fallen trees soft along forest trails great Douglas firs pleased to offer special knowledge hardly won

Deep Choice

disrupt all habits reform the good once clear how can you know assume the worst thinking justifies anything it can't be trusted start again pattern isn't person feels the same deep choice revealing natural cherished ways disguise trap logic hides machine revolt defending barricade practice improves ping-pong to a point never reached beyond decision to change your life

New Wrinkles

spontaneous hospitality occasions inspired home cooking say so myself summer might as well be endless sadly isn't love it while you have it naturally together this is the real flow state secret glee offers possible ideals artistic music anticipation theatre company where I belong sitting alone being focused usual outpouring discovering new wrinkles familiar faces go on flattering light needs no excuse who waits revealing laughable wisdom must include darkness dissipated light arising from above shoulders nicely tan

Pixie Smile

alarm afar unheard arouse aware awards for Robert Patrick looking fine new do his pointed beard a pixie smile awake despite a night too bright to light above below behind before around a rhythm never heard beyond belief delight afoot Barack a birthday bro concludes without betray delay hooray

Easy Pleasure

paralyzed by action is that right what is anticipated is what happens I am willing harmony decision making easy pleasure in familiar novel variations needing variety within parameters don't need to exist but do nonetheless gratify father

Young Lovers

everything said the miles fly by favorite words reheard like art recontexted new young lovers excited exchanges echo thrice reestablish my meaning reflex thank garlic feta eggplant walk on thought don't begin to sway

Little Lives

cherries ended blueberries drawing to a close second raspberries coming soon nothing to be done only enjoy the bounty store up the beautiful nourishment so we share depths while caught in our little lives nothing but the saying saves what can be saved available for the taking you come move morning into warming day bring meaning to the season

Hot Water

record heat I skipped it plunged in Breitenbush hot water gazing up at tiny cloud wisps blue sky above the trees deeply relaxing mellow be naked parallel world every need supplied good food pure intentions optimistic left cabins spartan gladly go home

All Embrace

two naps or was it three parties are exhausting I like having them good literary cause of reading for pleasure does anyone I know now ahem a dream refreshment what ever happened to that perusing David Grossman "Be My Knife" heavy but good Israeli mindful dare to be different can't help it still reluctant to say much hide indirect challenge confrontation otherwise unavoidable rather not what they have in common here I come from New York what kind man can't see themselves my shy a trivial obstacle let all embrace

Naked Bodies

hot days coming today turned out to be perfect book party twenty happy people Vere read played Mahalia Elvis treats peach shortcake blueberry cobbler whipped cream aplenty then another party Virginia Art's seventieth in their pretty backyard miscellaneous amiable locals scheming dog dire desserts dark fell home wash up hallucinate naked bodies

Still Silly

party preparation requires embrace welcome greeting oft neglected here shortcake flat batter too dry fantasy baking morning could be something else across the great divide a picnic at the hunt club wander the bishop's close observe suburban prosperity I am attracted I confess a little still silly hope a turnaround intelligence heart common sense essential now that we have done everything wrong each do part kind empathetic loved

If Only

if I hadn't been done this it could have been worse I might have anything you can think if only I wasn't such a dope misled woke up so slowly I was sixty before that clueless lost but happy loving creative no complaints great life