Final Kiss

twenties there leaves wilt plummet here pancakes beach sun Dick wet then Jane dears remember Mother dead last agony reaching final kiss Alfred birthday schoolday sag nap no doing set build slow plan left Brad morning skipped Halloween "The Departed" bad enough potato leek soup Waldorf salad Cutty Sark and so to bed work hard tomorrow

Typical Calm

delay useful my plan matures set slowly materializes Maurie paces actors ever better practice moves throwing dragging sitting strange furniture handle props costumes inconspicuous exact morale high typical calm intense commitment

Best Sushi

thwarted set behind techie Halloweens back Wed. director wills cue-to-cue Tue. lose cool breathe friends again whatever theatre a mess always thus and moreso day free I'd rather be at home read nap admire Bicky garden-to-be drum lesson best sushi Arigato Alfred's birthday 29

Night Body

poison dream panic trapped night body depants intransigent hater lover far north crushed heavy duvet perfect cell phlegmy no alternative real read write old words only toothache ears buzz stuffy unwell scientific phantasies may gradually recede extra hour darkness opposite of comfort

Catch Up

flying unreal girl muffle climbed over me passed out aisle flurry attendants hadn't eaten baby squirms girls good perfectly beautiful car rental Bicky's new house old Santa Barbara cooked tilapia runthrough "The Goat" terrific actors committed Maurie's direction keen mature spatial imagery lighting challenge after all see it how to do it Alfred himself again fuzzy delightful talk love curves suddenly exhausted dip "Elective Affinities" grateful sleep dawn different sky sun strong warm confer light needs coffee cookies see Sylvia called beach walk swim naked south coast wander visit Paul white aerie recovering tender friends know all share sweet amusingly domestic lost twice driving home dark not up young party Halloween eyes falling out glad feet up catch up write this

Don't Tell

packed hair cut watched "Belle de Jour" Bunuel so sly master of show don't tell small town politics mayor contestants know each other many years still fight no pay issues narrow personalities all seventh term versus new large breasts school bond dam threat development two-way streets question who will win

Be Glad

here until gone until the dark energy dominates completely read Chaucer and the Iliad be glad foundation Egyptian art love from all directions near far time does not attenuate nor rhyme invalidate our pure affinities ineluctable elected

Two Hands

errands make scripts buy djembe still there need Alfred teach show me play two hands vitamins consider kimono Bicky's birthday only printed drawn singing bowl sweet ring pleasing ear benevolent rehearsal watcher laughs encourages Julian said don't judge me easy learning personalities limitations cosmic time curves crossing now here dissolves in well-being bless illusion

Like Do

is routine good not really blurs unique each moment same spares constant choices like do if numb not notice

Never Was

adventure hiking on our own six acres one end other outside the creek fence with the wild creatures deer beavers a horse there surprisingly unmistakable water rising play finished sweep shop tulips planted fine summer afternoon October dream never normal anymore never was we were misled learning late

A Couple

little say few words everything adequate attention falls short of murmurous trivial vexation poof a project another year go further farther six dimensions aircraft hardware people time contrived reality playing work party time black white masks our art gang self-funding fun begins a couple fresh delight

My Dream

late play fly wait paint my dream trial passageway action placed to move seats sate mate leave early tack brunch ten cousins enough Pollock Sturgeon vox pop art may seem insensible to who say you

Why Hurry

cup coffee piece pie his grandfather's four words loved America Lawson Inada perfect presentation exemplary warmth wisdom music charm appreciating Salem anywhere "West Side Story" thankless revisiting past what theatre now celebrate success fresh audience transported old opinions taste always less relevant O.K. me why hurry damage done war changed bad patterns late hope we'll be gone gift elder young

Warm Water

make the calls balance duty pleasure provokes continuing activity thought emotion aesthetic shivers in the dark competency verified positive touch yearning enough body melody warm water cure anticipated disintegration

Painting Dirt

specks of consciousness floating in a fragile film Bergman's "Marriage Scenes" Dennis painting dirt funny poems cast favored actors early gains pre- ferred germ-free sleep research pending progress here stay true regrets like walnuts wet fall grass last vines revised fences save chairs rising water

Every Day

love work sun water every day happiness requires engagement flow state view random history feel it creeping up what bliss these lines against my ruined shore running from the flood legs distracted tasks undone clear desk day check rainbow

Rain Begins

rain begins blowing season change energy withdrawn after pancakes nothing much stay in keep quiet calmly reunite one eats watched read Mexico letters play Rameau Chinese pills against cold threat

Sugar Cream

whose birthday yesterday's date rings today perfect friendliness lunch sunny Tuscan hilltop leaf change valleys sere two museums curries shoes eggs okra he brings home pizza puts it down on kitchen counter opens box eats a slice standing there she flees the children xeroxes money for them complaining I'm looking for K-mart Martha pillow drive around cheerfully home watch movie "Confusion of Genders" laugh out loud slice a banana sugar cream

Sweet Meaning

I wanted to be different but it turns out I'm just like everybody else we all are different strokes all that but equally experiencing animals trying find intelligible self existence make something lives love sweet meaning

Original Work

swimming pool play sans pool how lame is that what expect no New York London not original work secondary "Take Me Out" was great sigh disappointed again learning how it all goes Jonathan Haidt "The Happiness Hypothesis" there Ovid my own ripe experience thanks clarity dare think new through worn grooves Uchida "Kreisleriana" sped drive home destroyed static antireflective coating helps vision fuzzing anyway cataracts see what see look enough more better

Opening Moves

mirror neurons explain sensitive blur confused opening moves if true contradicting circumstances prevent affinities express warm regard suspicious smiles hums distracting machinery welcome visitors deliver apple pie wine

Stop Wait

dizzy dream addled brain malfunction weird email Amazon $2500 alone here cancel chiropractor gradually recover thank God self doesn't know stop wait all consolations philosophy writing reading music impossible outsmart mortal systems aging glitches shorts tubes leak cells go crazy something

Fair Product

hole day missed never closes gone too much alone it takes a group to do anything readers for writers etc. slowly one thing another easy move forward sideways Bach entertaining "Princess Bride" fair product rising early kiss farewell return go again my clock running plan formed by promise need foregone intention

Less Gravity

old friends best food home made deer dark shadows waning moon eating sleeping emails linger live touch extends life awake longer days shorter nights less gravity

Life Novel

glib occurs being writer I have to write translate body language into words like love photos escape just being heartbeat fast breathing night dread dream fright enough Enough! meaning death tired traveling unlike home time exponential saw everyone did everything came back jive passing embraces neighbors defect my projects thunder down demanding all belief hours application wandering sensation waits repeats absorbs free off days doing aim historic life novel

Change Again

rain in California Oregon sun ha ha culture vultures price out Ashland necessary sodium vapor night and over the pass into the fog it's my birthday never mind change again

Dry Grass

dream of fame a cruel joke revolutionary looping learn later lessons youth mocked knowing better nothing else moving self past landscapes dry grass cattle sheep cloud new idea 18th century fun Dunsmuir best water earth

Widening Arc

odd what sticks with one people books images art I remember everything I wish more widening arc unexplained phenomena grace arising meaning see sound bubbles light image moving still near far say

Hand Surgery

constructing day sudden blank without Diane cites unwellness after teaching hours yesterday Marianne meeting warm last night vegetarian thoughts about Johnny Swiss artist companion breakfast chez Steve publishing new Cino book offered resources George playwright I helped 82 Shannon tonight Remy tomorrow remember me Ben after hand surgery de Young "God of Hell" library look again for book I saw once there still doesn't exist I'll have to write it myself

Merely Young

population double in my lifetime what are all these people to do productivity multiplied service revolving capital consumerized audio band like Burning Man disco babble Sunday barbecue around the pool outside my louvered room Phoenix Hotel in the Tenderloin only old person what are they good for merely young horny drinking blessings on their pleasures may they live love long enjoy wisdom