Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Best Vows

eternal doubt even Beckett Couperin sounds like serious advice sans real estate not real more body mind less world diddle words feel I'm working daffodils plum blossoms robins rain longer days movie nights property nightmare wake up early cushioned love mighty strange Chopin Preludes insurance poetry filing ask Bryan city office ask businesses support assert easy laps pause catch breath practice patterns renew best vows

Monday, February 27, 2006

Nothing Happens

morning basic business playhouse poetry festival banking swim read nap dream phone make stew whew all day required procedures ever arise Anthony Newman Bach showing off his stops settle Al's estate heaven music nothing happens except you know what how plot counterpoint

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Dozing Aloud

all my days about me going gone negative my own sentences trash forms effort flaring match crash harmonics masochistic parallel elusive earnest dialogue patient rote personalities dozing aloud sit hold forth pioneer revealing intimate existing twittering now

Saturday, February 25, 2006

Little Doings

tax advisor writing hobby just forget it where the hell am I somber films 9/11 US Chile can't back beings suffer Woodburn Starbucks little doings all there is no irony laughs sincere faith people son religious living alone classical music fusilli syrah here gone witnessed turn

Friday, February 24, 2006

Better Living

ambition live free full family friends why give up grind isolated just us stars burst from my penis billions virtual family I never knew why not Marshall Mason Doric Wilson Billy Hoffman after all small talk hang out actual distant who prefers separate seldom trips every day better living compound respect love mutual close how rejoin human corrupted lost paradise organize against war join bodies word wishes realize joy

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Actual Fate

first rain my practical calming numbers Chopin introspective humidity restored budding plum ahead arrivals take him to train baron wilder striking clock numb balm desire faint music drama mild white uncle his great-uncle willing human actual fate

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

The Who

face poetry financials track down last $2 satisfaction of bookkeeping art more elusive mediocre career blues descend all but the who what envy eats practical cats horses fed watered undressed pool full mechanical children screaming slide barley tuna my mellow chili artichokes account all act thought passion dream

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Horse Sense

lucidity simplicity euphony humor tolerance horse sense why thought matter struggle trivial human illusion smug bouquet fluoresce in twilit Maugham flourishes prose photographs persona mind crocodile present soon gone

How We Live

imaginative dispositions of existential materials seeking deliverance from actuality exotic, exotic, exotic lure! "Oh, my!" I deplored. compassion attention gratitude fiction about how we live

Monday, February 20, 2006

Why Suffer

evil thoughts mature absence paths diverge Brahms fencing outdoor in pool "cold" eighty nights freeze why suffer swollen vessels sometimes please think write work emerges no one notices cares left behind twinkling my Cino starker sacred blank space permit speech express libido pure who know mark inquiry after bliss unbroken tonic solving inner space

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Serious Shopping

these are not sneakers they are Sauconys bought after months of serious shopping comic book art screensaver imagination swim coming back Trader Joe's Woodburn hitchhiking John Burke flown from Paris that day tonight potluck poetry people Kelley Steve Stephen Christopher John plus Carol John good talk food port anchovy trio Salem struggling Chinese children distracting saved Mozart flute Tansman revelation justifies everyone

Modern Wisdom

who are we all and where are the boundaries of our reasonable self? singular? collective? why boundaries? not Woolf regrettably modern wisdom words realized being specific clues Dan Brazil avid look draw paint image thief chief celebrant bizarre interchange white bread

Friday, February 17, 2006

What Not

Warhol sex boat lovely unlikely still drowned obscurity cold gorge wind what not wars Afghanistan Iraq drug costs commercials television sports commentary politics disease Santa Barbara Magazine luxury cars rich people crime slick entertainment blockbuster movies Christian art suicide mayhem Bush Cheney gangs power talk meth trash global crash enjoying Vicodin why not soften mood future past ever caring all

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Suddenly Free

can one speak of teeth of buggery nothing revealed nothing opens saved for later post-extraction blue nothing between lines old companions tiny apartments clotted memorata beauties former obsessions losing teeth hobbled poor amusing still like no one here those Cambridge rooms clean brilliant minds bodies bored un- spoken Strachey semen suddenly free

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Worth Saying

standard what worth saying so high better not break unworthily George's otherwise embracing nonanatomical see entire devotion Virginia Stephen observing everything including self lap writing sunny bedroom Alfred phoned save photos cheery loving perfect Valentines anticipate true confidences dubious exposed skin experience conductivity enhanced

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Marriage Bed

home rhythm centered marriage bed long hours desk quiet country springward winter small quiet town poetry gang stuff envelopes Wright bedroom noisy naming nobody boss together make festival happen dentist friendly ordeal read random computer stint thinking "Sex/Life" publish is it good and do I dare walk perimeter field Carol Faustino fencing stream long against beavers deer there they are always eat

Monday, February 13, 2006

Meek Tears

history only understood extreme eccentric phenomena integrated view whole Mussolini ghost intimidation assassination Jews military adventurism civil war real men govern brutally persuade fearful petty passive confused distracted corpse ridiculous operas undesirable pilgrims mistress $2 billion Switzerland paparazzi excused Evita bizarre speculations bare-chested fascinating death bewildered orgy mourning Soviet collapse vacation crisis style rule meek tears

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Every Minute

"SUCCESS" your play was!!!Michael it was very special for me to be working with you and your play.i loved every minute of it, i loved watching you light up when Alfred was on stage. and watching you work with other people, your calm manner, and watching you express frustration when lines were not learned; always in the most gentle way. (2006) It isn't hard to see what Mr. Smith is driving at. His people, sharing a sensibility that is intensely local and accessible right now, are leading the aimless lives of Chekhov's people, updated, bringing all the problems of their modern, urban existence to the country and not quite managing to cope with either the problems or the land itself. (1971)

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Bottom Line

thinking of Edmund Wilson American "empire" Virginia Woolf bridge different ages hard workers do more good $15,555.67 bottom line ouch plus plays ballet extra planes trains Florent rent Denver car scrape cash keep up inflation thanks Diane friendly card became live play entwining episode fresh angle shining moments wit fantasia light

Friday, February 10, 2006

Still Trying

make sense world beyond self does it too smart lucky nice person little life where next divert better what writing think act publish unite change history amusing despair aestheticized agony big ideas demonic repudiation known felt truth picket fence alone compute still trying long present instant past

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Play Manhattan

all we did not measured play's clear failure underpowered arbitrary timed Alfred Patti only allies Jon useless Jimmy job Crystal Mark spread thin etcetera only producer me no assistant tried my best good work realized imagination true fun did it broke come happy home not memory precious but time being itself elevated taste cosmopolis richly active harmony rhythm ever now within us filius pater play Manhattan

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Destination Home

slam land Dulles shifty cigar friendly mom two two nursing share "Pride Prejudice" please Denver hosted Nancy Mangus eighty gather Germinal Stage remember Al Brooks fondly parted Alfred Phoenix flying separate destination home

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Old Pull

packing psyched it's blog time last ping pong hot making shots Alfred missing smashes better blazing Julian phone left there what reads my mood grooving city dubious quiet home exile old pull not possible not real is that all simple transition fire always burning new family dancing gas fencing weeks rain suitcase full shoulder book bag phone found thanks prize son count luck free worth hang in phone sales better job be stuck write another play good plan Heide says keep doing it I'm here tireless same more well being sick the part age dread stronger now last year before rise light changes brain wave lifts inquiring will be known

Monday, February 06, 2006

Sex Matters

I'm all right $1,000 left at Washington Trust should make it after all Gary cancelled dinner time pack clean up same day laundry haircut Bob Heide last performances flowed fond detail Kathryn black eye swelling makeup magic sashaying Tess changes expert Alfred gleeful Dickieisms Renato's Big Boy distracted Jimmy wig odd pauses priceless deadpan Patti fairly natural faintly sinister Dino punchy perfect type Josh astonish range few lines Dave booth offered gladly received committed serious each own fun my work says sex matters whatever else plays form blurred Jon lighting lost brute mistaken design too bad too hard do it by myself live learn

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Brief Ruin

sublime bland pie moules Belgian beer bliss bested burping over liberated future spent budget underearned exhausted cash accounts low Jerry tomorrow face numbers fear new costs pay when can home rebalance I wanted to do it did glad every minute well worth brief ruin

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Great Actors

Thursday train Darien visit John Kathy Ginny transcending limits rising good winter warmth missed return go beach time filled positive love all nod extend will arises skip rocks still water Judith Antigone Hanon Kreon she understands too far close Brecht more relevant Bess vaguely memory what one has forgotten relives now go home rich city culture future hope great actors

Good Fortune

art e.g. play blog attempt make meaning break in neighbors' house bang cut head Coretta Wendy pelt growling ogre peanuts drive evil away oni no setsubu family way big pillows sunlit terrace unexpected light radiant friends undimmed present grace good fortune weather airy morning time greets rising ready words here daily yoga

Friday, February 03, 2006

Bad Beavers

fish in stream bad beavers fenced its Friday night live three friends Kathryn four mine no public my limitations too Woolf revealed modern classics archive kidding self cosmopolitan standards reject good will critic movie contrived box office blintzes Upshaw Ukrainian beer listening leaving wiggling my feet haircut time dead battery distance equal measure move jet pattern swooping in Tom Michael Peter Nicky not all too old sick past called home nobody missing

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Real Consequence

love gone home play good wry night go on warm claps Barry puzzled Judith tickled Linda smart Bicky Caribbean too actual next plot events make up real consequence

Oil Water

dog barks caravan passes Nam myoho sat June union mystery oil water sun Paik bus fly home Mozart rehearsal keen Kahane Kathryn fell swell blood tears add line how look could worse Patti harrass scream stronger stars trouble art collaboration smooth dream pro ringe kyo