Monday, August 19, 2019

Changes

everything changes even if we
don't believe it think everything
stays the same plodding through
the seasons over and over while
we ourselves gradually expire in
fatalistic bemusement older and
wiser finally accepting ourselves
as we deteriorate hardly noticing
everything else is changing too

Saturday, August 17, 2019

Off Limits

it's only me I can speak for
my circumstantial self white
a man I can entirely accept

others I can't imagine or
presume to think are much
different or much the same

off limits or my victims in
spite of personal good will
never to be reconciled with

all the mistakes we all keep
making the best of a nasty
history we never learn from

Monday, August 12, 2019

Watching the Light

if it isn't words it isn't anything I can
use or have purposes for disguised as
absent-mindedness like lying in the
hammock beside the creek listening
and watching the light slowly change

if it is I can do something with them
with or without explicit intentions to
marry and see what happens nothing
to be afraid of or live alone and do
exactly what I want my whole life

Thursday, August 08, 2019

Real Things

can be awake when asleep
think of real
things I was going to
drifted off

or being cryptic
"camp" as irony
against flatness
I studied in New York

the dead alive again
practicing theory
a form of madness
but enjoyable

Saturday, July 20, 2019

Still Here

endless doing wears thin
ongoing crisis wears out its welcome
anxiety of identity makes it hard to eat
where is the liberation pill
wise words enable calm

breathe you are not alone
molecules interpenetrate exchange
everything is still here
not a breath but my own
looking for the way not out but in

Friday, July 05, 2019

Expiration Date

it all seems like a mistake
now that we realize the cost
how can I be important one
of billions knowing and using
the same simple words poor
me on a trivial planet dying

Wednesday, July 03, 2019

Closing Night

something is to be said but what
is it the window is closing night
is outside trying to get in time a
magazine rapid-firing newsmen
fill blank racket patriotic poses
curdled fame tanks raw dissent
strategic spoilage poisonalities
on display call in when you can

Thursday, June 13, 2019

Tai Chi

children's voices from the creek
tai chi in the park on a hot day
four of us sync with our teacher
smell of cut grass slow precision
sun spots like unwanted attention
hot breezes off the pool parking
cooling when the direction shifts
specimen trees fine companions
bow to each other at conclusion

Saturday, June 08, 2019

After All

after all we used to think possible
what remains we have composed
to be like this here now for a time
refreshed by the changing seasons

after all we are still who knows it
listening for hints of unspoken joy
itches aches pains the aging body
better able to bear the old routine

after all the moment come move
on the day breakfast and all that
ready to receive and giving back
blessings grateful to be our own

Tuesday, June 04, 2019

What I Mean

if I can't talk to you there's
no one between us only air

this the way it is then words
hopeless only action speaks

you don't wait for approval
or care what I am thinking

interesting if true love truly
on another level altogether

I believe what I must must
avoid saying what I mean