Sunday, February 07, 2016

Figure It Out

if I didn't say so
you wouldn't know
even if you thought you did

if I didn't speak
it wouldn't come true
unless I didn't want you to know

if I didn't know
how could I tell you
we would have to figure it out

Saturday, February 06, 2016

Whole People

hard to cheer up reading about
Tennessee Williams's poor sister
haunting him terrible things do
leave terrible scars on our souls

what we can make of our lives
is whole people open to heaven
peeping through like the moon
through clouds ever blowing in

Friday, February 05, 2016

Real Thought

goodbye before you arrive
you have to have left here
taking everything with you
as if you intended to stay

return sooner than expected
surprising results to follow
as if inexperienced travelers
left their documents at home

come back again sooner air
transport won't last forever
or the internet or anything
fine requiring real thought

Thursday, February 04, 2016

Fixed Intention

terrible subtractions stun the distraught merrymakers
if serious we are ruined if not shallow or perfunctory

I applaud but can't endorse corruption compromise
mendacity erupting from within the poisoned earth

frozen prophecies warmed over dinner still fulfills
what I believed was my fixed intention to be good

Wednesday, February 03, 2016

My Body

naked isn't what it was
sexy assertively natural
now all lumps and spots
I less like to see my body
looking better in clothes
fool everyone but myself

Tuesday, February 02, 2016

Try Again

am I a significant modern type
I wonder Wilhelm Meister Faust
modeling what not to do I think
I understand what Goethe means

if not I understand almost nothing
glimpses forgotten when I turn a
page read several books at once
resolve to try again to understand

Monday, February 01, 2016

Who Died

it can't be uttered at the time the dread
and then thank God it's gone perchance
to dream to wake to feel the hollowness
inaccessible reason only makes it worse
inescapable awful horror realer than real
like a city reduced to rubble to be rebuilt
forget who died they are ever part of you
but not themselves nothing more all ends

Saturday, January 30, 2016

Still Unknown

the future is still unknown
something might stull happen
beyond what was promised
though less than we expected

while dwindling to nothing
we presume to be important
to one other person if scarcely
noticed in the wider world

knowing better doesn't mean
another chance for an identity
only approximately realized
asking how soon is too late

no one notices that you're old
until you are still struggling
to say whatever you intended
become whatever you desired

Friday, January 29, 2016

Individual Aims

many hearing more don't notice
except when something is missing
a subtle rhythm easily breathing
inside a leaky electric head space

still alive we keep track of time
elaborately planning it expecting
continuity beyond the actual
which seeming real therefore is

I do mean you we're all in it
together and apart breathing air
drinking water eating animals
assured in our individual aims

Thursday, January 28, 2016

Morning Cup

distracted by reality I recognize
patterns perfected by practicing
depend on time having passed

dreams clarify what I've missed
counting vitamins brewing my
morning cup quickly consumed

then I'd wonder what I'm doing
nothing special beyond the usual
reenacting the familiar situation