Thursday, October 19, 2017

Deep Thinking

out of context nothing
fits my size changing
with the weather deep
thinking is impossible

I go on anyway trying
to live alone one night
used up easily another
recovery close behind

Going Away

looking forward to getting back
the new paradigm of going away
not that I don't want to go indeed
I will be glad to be there with my
precious family enlarged by Bill
intend to have a wonderful time

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Anxiety

if I don't know where I am
or where you are and don't
have a smart phone what
can I possibly tell Uber

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Higher Thoughts

I wish I was smarter
and could understand
what's really going on
appreciate sincerity be
ready for what happens
more honest with myself

I wish I felt better could
get up off the floor roll
over in bed swim a few
laps and embrace easily
freely expressing my
deeper higher thoughts

Monday, October 16, 2017

Before Knowing

within reality is the dream
behind understanding the sum
of art before knowing emotion

meaning emerges on its own
strength is continuing to act
beauty is sensing it is there

whether or not you can see
well enough to read or drive
you still can go on looking

Sunday, October 15, 2017

Case Closed

what you say
becomes what was
the case closed
when you write it out

that was a time
of what you would
told again tarnished
by the hopeful air

desirous still
to know the real
impels revision
as fantasy gels

never again to be
paid in cocaine
awake all night
burnishing revelation

now rest beckons
past times past
beyond recovery
enshrined in word

Saturday, October 14, 2017

My Story

pages pile up
as if that means something
I have to do it
even if hardly anyone cares
it's my story
I insist on telling it

Friday, October 13, 2017

Up to You

if you remember better times
you are deluded 'twas always
thus and up to you to see the
beauty and realize the good
unless something bad happens
and all is lost or loved ones
hurt or dead or sick yourself
then it's not your fault and
altogether necessary to be sad

Thursday, October 12, 2017

Above All

feeling better comes from doing
merely being not quite enough
you need exercise and to move
in space talk with other people
then you have a chance to rise
above all terribleness and loss

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Roll Over

nothing matters if you're not alive
what if you're not feeling entirely
well what then what is to be done

and if you wake up weird and can't
roll over can't get up off the floor
who are you now what is to be done

all that matters is what's happening
right here and now you know how
you manage and what is to be done